Well the END is here...Happy new one guys n gals!!

Yeap ladies and gentlemen,

It is the end of the year now. It has been about 4 months that i did not write anything in the blog. Sometimes i just had a bad day and i didn't want to write about it anymore. Sometimes, i really would have had a great day. It was so great that i did not want to share it with anyone actually. Sigh, strange how i at those times lost hope in the saying "Happiness shared is doubled ; Sorrow shared is divided" I just wanted to collect and keep what i had to myself, trying my best not to let it go even one bit.

Anyway, i have started to work in proper now. No more job skipping. No more training. Totally an employee of Klang Multi Terminals Sdn. Bhd which runs the best port in the country also known as WESTPORT...eheheh!! Working 3 shifts, i am attached to Group D and i am their Shift Operations Executive. This means during my shift i am totally in charge of whatever happens in the Container Yard. Most of the times i just have to make sure that the Yard is traffic jam free. Company is generous, bosses are understanding for the most part, career path is great with the upcoming expansions. All is left to be done is me learning my job and performing at it.

Next, i have to say my active life is sort off in the slow down phase. Need to change that and really try my best to find time to do sports. I am not going to blame busy working hours as a reason for not exercising and start to grow FAT like most people do. We HAVE a choice, and i choose to make myself MORE tired! Hahaha!!~

Hmmnn what else to talk about. Do i mention love? I guess i should. Since maybe one day i want to look back at these postings and remind myself of the changes that happened in my life. Hahaaahaah... These are the silly things that forgetful people do. Anyway to start off, the one lady that i was interested in the most for all this time finally jumped a cliff to her death. This is what happened in my heart la. She is alive but the one thing she could say to make me hate her, she said it. And thus my feelings that were growing strong for a year like a young tree in my heart just got dosed with Paraquat. Poisoned the whole system. And well, like any self-respecting male i tried to avoid her but she didn't let me. (Hahahaha...no surprise there seeing how silly she can be sometimes.)

Of course as i have seen happening in my life, every thing small or big that happens in my life happens for a reason. Seemingly, almost overnight another bright and beautiful young lady stepped in and we both happen to be crazy for each other right now. I have to say absolutely no traces of the earlier feeling is in my heart anymore. It just got wiped out and nothing triggers me to feel warm towards the earlier girl anymore. I tried my best to delve and make sure it is not some form of rebound that i am experiencing...

What i do know is the present is what counts. No matter what i have said or done. The NOW is what matters and now i think i am falling hopelessly in love with the lady that stepped into my life. She might think of herself as attractive and that she chose me among the bunch of guys that hit on her and try to get her attention (seriously it happens. I am not exaggerating here). But, i know how particular i am about my own choices too, and she fits into my life perfectly. Everything new that i learn about her just makes me realise how much more right she is for me...how freaky is that? =P.. well, anyway i know i am going to try my best! Since everything has been going right for me, in this matter i will fight for it.

Ok.. work, sport and love has been covered. Next up is about my family and meditation. Family wise there have been some strains between members. We all love each other and we all do not want to let go of each other or give up on each other. Just that increasingly there are more individual opinions and well, as is the case arguments are bound to happen. (Heaven knows what's gonna happen when i finally tell them about my relationship issue...=P) And every argument sort of stands in the way until it is resolved. I am trying my best to stay out of them so that i can help to resolve them. Hahahaha....Of course sometimes i am caught up in them too. Normal stuff between families la, just that its happening more frequently than i am used to.

Thanks to the fact that the whole family is in meditation i think we have this one common ground where we let go all personal issues and deal with it professionally and peacefully. It keeps the communications open and quite a lot of the times those of us with arguments would find the answer in our meditations as to what we are willing to let go and compromise.

Yes, this is the part i keep trying to tell my friends but they have NEVER listened to me. The meditation that i do whole-heartedly. The centre that i go to voluntarily. The power given to us there is REAL!! The power that our Guruji has is REAL and it is Divine in nature. (no magic involved and in fact no one with ANY magic will be able to penetrate the protection we gain) The true essence of a Divine Guru is in enabling His disciple to be able to achieve all the levels that the Guruji himself has reached. I have felt it since the day i took the course and i am still feeling it in the 3 years that i have been in the centre. There is a power within me that grows and helps me the more i do the meditation that i have learnt in the centre. The power even enhances my prayers making them come true most of the time. It is NOT in my mind...it is NOT just my belief...It definitely is NOT only for me or my family. About 100,000 people have taken the course in Malaysia and the centre grows rapidly. Yet i have one regret. Not even ONE of my friends listened to me and took the course to benefit from it themselves. They say money is a factor, yet they go shopping. They say time is a factor, yet they go to cinemas to watch movies. They say about not being interested and that it is too early... bla bla bla, yet the course is all about personal gain and advancement all the way. Why do you want to WAIT for that when you see that I am benefiting now?

Lastly, we come to the latest benefit that i have gained from doing my meditations. I prayed and got myself a car. Brand new. In my prayer i envisioned the number plate to be BHX 96. The number just lari a little bit. I got BHX 960 since the tendering for the BHX 2 digit numbers were closed before i got the registration card. Everything else about the car is as i imagined it to be. Even the repayment is lesser than RM 500, which is one of the things i wanted. If you buy the same car now, the repayment would be more slightly as there is no more purchase discount. The tuesday before i got my new car, in fact i got into an accident driving in the Kancil at my workplace (the Container Yard isn't a small place so i need it). Never knew what happened but at the end of it, instead of crashing at the back of a trailer and causing a funeral(mine), i just hit the tyres and bounced back. I know the protection i have took care of everything when i lost concentration at the wheel and looked off to the equipment on the right behind my shoulders. Foolish? yeah....but i'm still alive ain't I? :) Convinced yet? :D

Signing off for year 2005!! May we have a great and ACCIDENTLESS year 2006....=P

-Mathanaseelan-