Hey guys.
I am not sure of my current topic at the moment. I just sat in front of the pc and i am sort of staring blankly and wondering what am i supposed to write. Maybe i will just mention this little trip i had to Singapore Airlines KL office yesterday. I guess it was an experience of seeing "Divine movement in mysterious ways".
Last week, my mother had this little intuition burst to ask me to go to work in Singapore. At the same time, i recieved news of job offers in the Singapore Airlines office in KL from not one but 2 totally different people. Both of them mentioned the same job which is the Customer Service Agent paying about RM1600.
It seems a bit far-fetched i know. Yet, these are the little 'clues' that i am USED to getting in the last 3 years since i joined my Meditation Centre. If I honestly am seeking for an answer and i really want to get it, somehow from somewhere a person would mention a little morsel of information in passing that i would be able to use to solve my problems. (So yeah, this is one of the reasons why i always ask you guys to come have a look at my Centre, for free la. The joining part where you pay RM730, you guys can think about it later. Come to find out formally the FULL BENEFITS you can gain because i am not supposed to divulge too much info outside the Centre also =p!~)
Anyway, back to what happened. The clues led me finally to the SIA office yesterday. I didn't go last week itself as soon as i got the clues because i had to go to Serdang and make that whole ZOO trip with the guys to celebrate Jane Chuah's birthday. This made my parents a bit angry and on one of the nights, in the middle of lecturing to me about procrastination, they actually told me things that i never guessed was a part of my extended family's history. So, for this once procrastination worked out well(Haha!!~).
In the end, i reached the office to actually NOT get the job. Yeah, you heard rite! NOT to get the job. The receptionist told me that the opening was taken up last week itself. She also told me that looking at me I wouldn't last in that job at all. It is a position for SPM leavers and more suitable for girls. The job also doesn't have much upward mobility, i.e:- not much in the way of promotions.
She then proceeded to LECTURE me. Halfway through i realised that i was led to that place, with all the 'clues' NOT to actually get a job but in a way I was set to be there to listen to her instruct me. A lot of the things she said rang in the same tone of my parents' advices to me. Seriously though, coming from a total stranger it had a totally different feeling to it. It actually made me look at the points carefully and superimpose it with what my parents had already said because she was talking from a different level, a different angle and a different perspective. So yeah, i actually thought deeper about all those things that my parents had already said.
Next she went on to tell me about corporate life. [Stuff that you won't learn even in Harvard Business School, right Zack ;)?] Honestly though, it did feel that way. Here was someone that is experienced working for firms and she is willing to give me advise for FREE. Which idiot would not listen? I just soaked it all up as much as i can. The one hour plus i spent listening to that lady, i think i learnt enough of pure knowledge that can be gained in one semester in MMU. Plus whether or not she realised it, she actually gave me an outline of what i should be doing in the next 2 years. Interestingly, this was my question during my prayers!!~ "What path should i choose now?".
The Divine move in mysterious ways to answer our prayers.
-Mathan-
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Physics is a mind-twister
Hey guys,
It started out just another day. I was up and chatting, eating and doing little chores. About 9pm Zack asked me to go to the nearby mamak. It was set at 10pm and that's where i ended up until about 12:45am having my dinner/supper.
Well, it was one of the times when Zack and I were both on fire in the mental juices department. Something was cooking and after simmering in our minds, the ideas just started overflowing. I mean we were talking about stuff on TV and Zack was updating us about the greatest battleship ever built; the Japanese-made "YAMATO" based on the documentary he watched in ASTRO.
At one point, we were talking about aeroplanes and we all agreed that the SR-71 BlackBird is the most interesting piece of machinery ever built. Flying at about 85,000 feet (16 miles from the ground), the BlackBird can achieve speeds of about 3.2+Mach. Following planes, we were talking about the declining Dollar value, and some other stuff.
The most interesting part came after that when we were talking about planes and the guys were letting me know that AirForce One.....is actually capable of sustaining a space travel trip if the pilot really got them out of the atmosphere. This let us into thinking about the radiation levels humans have to endure in space due to the lack of an ozone layer.
I was explaining to them about the whole thing that is to do with gamma rays which are actually
very potent and they need a lot of shielding to be protected. Somehow the conversation got extrapolated and were actually trying to think as to why light behaves as a wave, yet it can be propogated through a medium-less vacuum. Zack mentioned, "What if the vacuum is vacuum but not completely devoid of matter. There is actually something there in vacuum that us as normal humans cannot percieve. Kudos to Zack....for this interesting thought; that caused me to continue by thinking of the gravitational fields and how it can be fitted inside.
Honestly, i would love nothing more than to mention further in detail how we came by our theory, but i am dead tired and i feel like i could doze off anytime. So, guess things have to wait a bit for the moment. Happy Graduation for the rest of u ..take care, guys!!~
It started out just another day. I was up and chatting, eating and doing little chores. About 9pm Zack asked me to go to the nearby mamak. It was set at 10pm and that's where i ended up until about 12:45am having my dinner/supper.
Well, it was one of the times when Zack and I were both on fire in the mental juices department. Something was cooking and after simmering in our minds, the ideas just started overflowing. I mean we were talking about stuff on TV and Zack was updating us about the greatest battleship ever built; the Japanese-made "YAMATO" based on the documentary he watched in ASTRO.
At one point, we were talking about aeroplanes and we all agreed that the SR-71 BlackBird is the most interesting piece of machinery ever built. Flying at about 85,000 feet (16 miles from the ground), the BlackBird can achieve speeds of about 3.2+Mach. Following planes, we were talking about the declining Dollar value, and some other stuff.
The most interesting part came after that when we were talking about planes and the guys were letting me know that AirForce One.....is actually capable of sustaining a space travel trip if the pilot really got them out of the atmosphere. This let us into thinking about the radiation levels humans have to endure in space due to the lack of an ozone layer.
I was explaining to them about the whole thing that is to do with gamma rays which are actually
very potent and they need a lot of shielding to be protected. Somehow the conversation got extrapolated and were actually trying to think as to why light behaves as a wave, yet it can be propogated through a medium-less vacuum. Zack mentioned, "What if the vacuum is vacuum but not completely devoid of matter. There is actually something there in vacuum that us as normal humans cannot percieve. Kudos to Zack....for this interesting thought; that caused me to continue by thinking of the gravitational fields and how it can be fitted inside.
Honestly, i would love nothing more than to mention further in detail how we came by our theory, but i am dead tired and i feel like i could doze off anytime. So, guess things have to wait a bit for the moment. Happy Graduation for the rest of u ..take care, guys!!~
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Escaping the authorities...
Morning 9.00am - 10.00am
Heart is pumping fast. There is a need to be there. I need to be there fast, and time is running out. I step on the accelerator. Every moment is a calculated risk that i am willing to take. Stepping on the accelerator is an absolute risk in my case as i have seen currently my luck, travelling on the Malaysian highway system, is not so good. Things happen to me, terrible things that never happened to me before. Sometimes, i feel that all the would-be accidents and near misses that i had experienced in the last 7 years went through some sort of 'credit accumulation'. And now, it's time to PAY in FULL. But, this is not the point of my post...
I took the calculated risk. I accelerated as the need of it pressed urgently. Then,.... i saw him, and my world came crashing down. White uniform shirt, black pants and boots, holding a laser speed gun at the divider, pointing at ME... *BaNg*..i died in my heart. "NO-oooooo, why of all days today?" was the thought running across my mind. A quick check told me i was doing 110Km/h, and i have to hope that is the speed limit in the area and not 90km/h hopefully. So much for taking calculated risks, i thought.
Anyway, i was praying hard and looking out for the road block that siphons out criminals from goodly citizens on the road. Yet, i did not see any. I realised belatedly after 10minutes that i had ESCAPED!~ I went on to the destination and reached on time. (Not that it was worth it due to the management incompetence on the other side. Yet, to offset that dissatisfactory event i met someone that could potentially be a great ally in my future and a guy that was a blast from the past;Mr. Gopinath Naidu. May it happen that we cross paths again and we have more time to discuss news, bro!)
Night 9.00pm
Fast forward to the night-life. Went clubbing and well, AGAIN there was a dissappointment as i belatedly realised that i was a part of a birthday party where i didn't know ANYBODY among the celebtrating. I hate it, i Hate it, I HATE IT!!!!!~ when people don't open their bloody mouths and inform me, as to what am i to EXPECT especially after i have ASKED them. I HATE IT, when i ask "Who else is going to be there?" and the response i get is "my fren". Yes, i realise i do not know you're friends but, telling me the name won't kill your friend, RIGHT? I do NOT ask personal questions, i just want to have a rough picture of what to expect and how to behave when i get there and to me, YES!! knowing their name beforehand helps. I cannot deal with surprises when they make me feel stupid and out of place, and that's exactly what happened, by not knowing what the whole outing was about. I just blindly went there to dance with a few friends and realised there is only so much dancing u can do if everybody is hanging out with their OWN friends and celebrating their own BIRTHDAY party.
Was totally feeling pissed off with myself for being so stupid. They all wanted to meet up at a mamak in Subang. 2 cars left KL; 1 car with 6 people crammed and another with me driving alone. So, NOW do u realise how out of place i was feeling? This 6 people included the people that invited me for the outing in the first place. The rest of the birthday celebraters i won't include in this calculation as i totally wasn't intro-ed to them also. Still don't understand why i wanted to continue on to a mamak session with them...but that is not the point....
IT HAPPENED AGAIN. I just drove past the Pudu Jail traffic lights when there was a police blockade. I was aghast. The escape in the morning was playing back in my mind and i was thinking, how COME? Is it Fated that i HAVE to be caught!~? Again, i started praying hard. I mean i just had one beer for the whole night, that i barely need to be questioned. The car approached the blockade. This time the policemen were serious, they really checked each car with torchlights. I busily thought how am i going to make it look like i am just a normal guy driving by and not back from clubbing. Threw away my neck-beads, wore my specs and did a little arrangement thingy of the stuff on the passenger seat and then approached the police. It had to be luck, i ESCAPED yet again!!~ They just took one disinterested look at my car and waved me off.
So, went to the mamak. Ate and returned home. Driving using a license that already expired end of last month.....;P
-Mathan-
Heart is pumping fast. There is a need to be there. I need to be there fast, and time is running out. I step on the accelerator. Every moment is a calculated risk that i am willing to take. Stepping on the accelerator is an absolute risk in my case as i have seen currently my luck, travelling on the Malaysian highway system, is not so good. Things happen to me, terrible things that never happened to me before. Sometimes, i feel that all the would-be accidents and near misses that i had experienced in the last 7 years went through some sort of 'credit accumulation'. And now, it's time to PAY in FULL. But, this is not the point of my post...
I took the calculated risk. I accelerated as the need of it pressed urgently. Then,.... i saw him, and my world came crashing down. White uniform shirt, black pants and boots, holding a laser speed gun at the divider, pointing at ME... *BaNg*..i died in my heart. "NO-oooooo, why of all days today?" was the thought running across my mind. A quick check told me i was doing 110Km/h, and i have to hope that is the speed limit in the area and not 90km/h hopefully. So much for taking calculated risks, i thought.
Anyway, i was praying hard and looking out for the road block that siphons out criminals from goodly citizens on the road. Yet, i did not see any. I realised belatedly after 10minutes that i had ESCAPED!~ I went on to the destination and reached on time. (Not that it was worth it due to the management incompetence on the other side. Yet, to offset that dissatisfactory event i met someone that could potentially be a great ally in my future and a guy that was a blast from the past;Mr. Gopinath Naidu. May it happen that we cross paths again and we have more time to discuss news, bro!)
Night 9.00pm
Fast forward to the night-life. Went clubbing and well, AGAIN there was a dissappointment as i belatedly realised that i was a part of a birthday party where i didn't know ANYBODY among the celebtrating. I hate it, i Hate it, I HATE IT!!!!!~ when people don't open their bloody mouths and inform me, as to what am i to EXPECT especially after i have ASKED them. I HATE IT, when i ask "Who else is going to be there?" and the response i get is "my fren". Yes, i realise i do not know you're friends but, telling me the name won't kill your friend, RIGHT? I do NOT ask personal questions, i just want to have a rough picture of what to expect and how to behave when i get there and to me, YES!! knowing their name beforehand helps. I cannot deal with surprises when they make me feel stupid and out of place, and that's exactly what happened, by not knowing what the whole outing was about. I just blindly went there to dance with a few friends and realised there is only so much dancing u can do if everybody is hanging out with their OWN friends and celebrating their own BIRTHDAY party.
Was totally feeling pissed off with myself for being so stupid. They all wanted to meet up at a mamak in Subang. 2 cars left KL; 1 car with 6 people crammed and another with me driving alone. So, NOW do u realise how out of place i was feeling? This 6 people included the people that invited me for the outing in the first place. The rest of the birthday celebraters i won't include in this calculation as i totally wasn't intro-ed to them also. Still don't understand why i wanted to continue on to a mamak session with them...but that is not the point....
IT HAPPENED AGAIN. I just drove past the Pudu Jail traffic lights when there was a police blockade. I was aghast. The escape in the morning was playing back in my mind and i was thinking, how COME? Is it Fated that i HAVE to be caught!~? Again, i started praying hard. I mean i just had one beer for the whole night, that i barely need to be questioned. The car approached the blockade. This time the policemen were serious, they really checked each car with torchlights. I busily thought how am i going to make it look like i am just a normal guy driving by and not back from clubbing. Threw away my neck-beads, wore my specs and did a little arrangement thingy of the stuff on the passenger seat and then approached the police. It had to be luck, i ESCAPED yet again!!~ They just took one disinterested look at my car and waved me off.
So, went to the mamak. Ate and returned home. Driving using a license that already expired end of last month.....;P
-Mathan-
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
The 1st Chakra in our body system
Hey to everybody out there,
This is the first time after a long time that i am remembering that i had promised to actually include notes about the rest of the Chakras. To newbies that didn't see my archives, the name of my website is not unique. It is the well-known name of the 5th of 7 major chakras in all our bodies. Vishuddha represents listening to our inner voice and creativity as well as the connection with others through speaking and listening.
Now, i shall brief you all about the First Chakra; Muladhara.
The first chakra, located at the base of the spine, represents our foundation. It is related to our tangible, life-affirming down to earth experiences, our tribal energy.It resonates to the color red and the element earth.A well balanced first chakra results in a feeling of calm and an aura of quiet strength and confidence.
It is also here at the Muladhara Chakra where the Kundalini Force of every individual lies dormant. It is pictured as a serpent coiled into 3 and a half circles; with its mouth closing the Sushumna Nadi (the highway that links the 7 chakras in a straight line). The Kundalini Force in all of us can be awakened gradually through dedicated, uninterrupted serious personal meditation techniques. The standard time limit can be something around 12 years before we start seeing real results (ie:- just the awakening of the Force).
With the Will and Word of a true Divine Guruji guiding us however, this long process can be reduced to a simple undertaking of months, weeks, days (even hours?? ;D ). Following this, we can just apply the techniques taught by our Guruji and encourage the travel of our Kundalini Force from Muladhara, right up to the 7th Chakra. Why do we WANT this to happen? The arrival of the Kundalini Force at the last Chakra is what causes us to reach Enlightenment/ Moksha/ Nirvana and break free from the cycle of rebirth and marks us as fit to attain God.
-Mathan-
This is the first time after a long time that i am remembering that i had promised to actually include notes about the rest of the Chakras. To newbies that didn't see my archives, the name of my website is not unique. It is the well-known name of the 5th of 7 major chakras in all our bodies. Vishuddha represents listening to our inner voice and creativity as well as the connection with others through speaking and listening.
Now, i shall brief you all about the First Chakra; Muladhara.
The first chakra, located at the base of the spine, represents our foundation. It is related to our tangible, life-affirming down to earth experiences, our tribal energy.It resonates to the color red and the element earth.A well balanced first chakra results in a feeling of calm and an aura of quiet strength and confidence.
It is also here at the Muladhara Chakra where the Kundalini Force of every individual lies dormant. It is pictured as a serpent coiled into 3 and a half circles; with its mouth closing the Sushumna Nadi (the highway that links the 7 chakras in a straight line). The Kundalini Force in all of us can be awakened gradually through dedicated, uninterrupted serious personal meditation techniques. The standard time limit can be something around 12 years before we start seeing real results (ie:- just the awakening of the Force).
With the Will and Word of a true Divine Guruji guiding us however, this long process can be reduced to a simple undertaking of months, weeks, days (even hours?? ;D ). Following this, we can just apply the techniques taught by our Guruji and encourage the travel of our Kundalini Force from Muladhara, right up to the 7th Chakra. Why do we WANT this to happen? The arrival of the Kundalini Force at the last Chakra is what causes us to reach Enlightenment/ Moksha/ Nirvana and break free from the cycle of rebirth and marks us as fit to attain God.
-Mathan-
Saturday, April 02, 2005
The terrors of the world
Yeaps ladies and gentlemen.
The terrors of the known universe is coming crashing down on me at the moment. I cannot say anything la. The only realm i seem to be scoring high points in is socialising. I hope that i will be able to go to Cafe7 later saturday evening. But, i am not sure if anything is going to be possible when it comes across my laziness.
I really want to work. Somehow there is this strange vibe inside me that is saying i will work only for what i believe in. For Heaven's Sake!~ This is my life here. Not the beginning of some tragic anime tale. I want to be able to perform anywhere. I want to be able to show everybody that i CAN MAKE it happen!~ Yet, i feel hesitant to sieze the moment.
This whole "i am going to die soon" thing is totally ticking me off. I do NOT want to live my life being paranoid. I want to be able to have fun and survive and thrive. I seriously think that i am spending way TOO MUCH time doing nothing. I need to be out there making my dreams come true.
I need myself to be strong enough to kick me, hopefully in the right direction. This is what i want to pray for since i have no ideas in the head as to which direction is the right one for me.
-Mathan-
The terrors of the known universe is coming crashing down on me at the moment. I cannot say anything la. The only realm i seem to be scoring high points in is socialising. I hope that i will be able to go to Cafe7 later saturday evening. But, i am not sure if anything is going to be possible when it comes across my laziness.
I really want to work. Somehow there is this strange vibe inside me that is saying i will work only for what i believe in. For Heaven's Sake!~ This is my life here. Not the beginning of some tragic anime tale. I want to be able to perform anywhere. I want to be able to show everybody that i CAN MAKE it happen!~ Yet, i feel hesitant to sieze the moment.
This whole "i am going to die soon" thing is totally ticking me off. I do NOT want to live my life being paranoid. I want to be able to have fun and survive and thrive. I seriously think that i am spending way TOO MUCH time doing nothing. I need to be out there making my dreams come true.
I need myself to be strong enough to kick me, hopefully in the right direction. This is what i want to pray for since i have no ideas in the head as to which direction is the right one for me.
-Mathan-
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