Hey guys,
Well, the interview was short and sweet. This is what I would like to say. But, we know that is hardly the reality with Interviews especially when it concerns admissions to a particular gaining-in-popularity Post-Graduate Programme. =)
I go the e-mail asking me to make the call at so-and-so time. I did call right on the dot. Unfortunately, my dear house phone that has consistently served any type of calls suddenly decided to give trouble. I could not Intn'l Direct Dial out to India. Sigh.
So, I ended up calling in 10 minutes late. I apologised to Mr. Sanjay Singh and then continued on to the gruelling bits. In fact, I would say I did have a very easy session as compared to what the other guys have been writing up in the Yahoogroups. In fact, I was in such a daze after the interview that I really cannot remember the questions that were asked of me now.
Maybe it was tough, but I did not feel it due to my utter and complete confidence at my success level. I have been blessed by Dato' Seri Guruji. Nothing else would be able to withstand or negate the power of a SUN now can it? Blessed Souls are like that. Nothing negative would be able to withstand their intent.
Of course, I won't be able to forget the last question. "Why didn't you get your immediate superiors to write you a testimonial? They have the time and position to see your current leadership skills. Your previous professors aren't able to do that. Can you get us your superior's comments?" I stammered badly as I had not expected a question about my application. I apologised and I promised I'll get it to them the following Monday. The reply i got was, "Send it in and we will give our answer in 2 weeks."
Asked them back a few quesitons, emphasising on the scholarships...and after that hung up! =)
Step 3: completed....
Monday, January 29, 2007
Monday, January 22, 2007
Step 2: Submitting the Application
Hey guys,
Now this was done last minute as the truest of Mathan's traditions. Honest to say, I really cannot remember what the Hell i was doing during August. But, I know I wasted my time a lot and took the whole application exercise lightly since the submission was by 3rd of October for the first round of Intakes.
September came and 2 weeks went by. It was about then I started everything. I realised at about that point that I had a LOT more to do than I realised. I was running around frantically. (My hair caught fire.Lol!~) There were 2 documents that I needed to get other people to write and submit. I chose Dr. Alan and Dr. Sagathevan to be my references. Took sometime for them to get the stuff written down and passed back. Had to get some copies and some documents verified.
Of course, the online site was a little difficult to navigate especially in trying to submit my educational background. I don't think ISB has had any students from Malaysia, therefore I could only submit best approximations to what I have scored. Sigh!~ I just prayed that my application would not be rejected due to the admissions team misunderstanding me based on the approximated results.
During this time, I would say Mr. Sanjay Singh of admissions was very, very supportive and cooperative. He took his time to explain in detail what I need and need not do through his emails. Honestly, his guidance helped a lot. Thank you very much, Mr. Sanjay Singh!
Submitted my applications online and couriered the hardcopies through DHL at end of September. Luckily, admissions team recieved my application package and updated the website promptly. Very happy at that time realising I've done the easy part and now the hard part was coming up. I was up to the challenge...Lol!~
I almost forgot the important part. I almost couldn't send the application on time due to being unable to find the bloody DHL office near my place. I found the area. It's just that the office was further in and I mistakenly thought, they being a prominent courier service would definitely set up their offices as close as possible to the main road. Oh BOY, was i WRONG!! It was so deep in I found it just as I was about to give up searching. Of course once I reached there, the guy there told me, they do document pick-ups at a little extra cost. Note to self: Definitely gonna use that service in future!! But, I did see a RPT Centre member working there. I was so happy to see her there. She briefly guided me on what I should do. Filled up the forms, put in the package for processing and left...
Step 2: completed...
Now this was done last minute as the truest of Mathan's traditions. Honest to say, I really cannot remember what the Hell i was doing during August. But, I know I wasted my time a lot and took the whole application exercise lightly since the submission was by 3rd of October for the first round of Intakes.
September came and 2 weeks went by. It was about then I started everything. I realised at about that point that I had a LOT more to do than I realised. I was running around frantically. (My hair caught fire.Lol!~) There were 2 documents that I needed to get other people to write and submit. I chose Dr. Alan and Dr. Sagathevan to be my references. Took sometime for them to get the stuff written down and passed back. Had to get some copies and some documents verified.
Of course, the online site was a little difficult to navigate especially in trying to submit my educational background. I don't think ISB has had any students from Malaysia, therefore I could only submit best approximations to what I have scored. Sigh!~ I just prayed that my application would not be rejected due to the admissions team misunderstanding me based on the approximated results.
During this time, I would say Mr. Sanjay Singh of admissions was very, very supportive and cooperative. He took his time to explain in detail what I need and need not do through his emails. Honestly, his guidance helped a lot. Thank you very much, Mr. Sanjay Singh!
Submitted my applications online and couriered the hardcopies through DHL at end of September. Luckily, admissions team recieved my application package and updated the website promptly. Very happy at that time realising I've done the easy part and now the hard part was coming up. I was up to the challenge...Lol!~
I almost forgot the important part. I almost couldn't send the application on time due to being unable to find the bloody DHL office near my place. I found the area. It's just that the office was further in and I mistakenly thought, they being a prominent courier service would definitely set up their offices as close as possible to the main road. Oh BOY, was i WRONG!! It was so deep in I found it just as I was about to give up searching. Of course once I reached there, the guy there told me, they do document pick-ups at a little extra cost. Note to self: Definitely gonna use that service in future!! But, I did see a RPT Centre member working there. I was so happy to see her there. She briefly guided me on what I should do. Filled up the forms, put in the package for processing and left...
Step 2: completed...
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Step 1: The GMAT
Hey guys,
This is the where the interesting part starts. Henceforth, the blog will cater to the general knowledge of all that come in to this site. Be it my family that supported me throughout these years, my darling best buddies, my dear Westportians or my new ISB batchmates.
I will be posting regularly to update everybody about my progress in life. Let's start with the GMAT. Paying for my GMAT was my very first HSBC Visa transaction. Not even 5 minutes had passed when a representative from HSBC called me to make sure I'm still holding the Card in my hand. Yup, it costs a lot in MYR. Close to 1k.
Following this, I got my follow-up materials a few weeks down the line just before my exam appointment. I got to complete one mock test after installing a specialised software on the day before the test. At that point, I was beginning to get a little befuddled due to the total new approach this exam was using to hammer at my mind. I've never tried for any MBA courses before this. I don't have anybody in my family who tried out the GMAT to attempt a Masters overseas. Nope, No cousins, no uncles nor brilliant aunts who stepped away from the shores of Malaysia. The friends who attempted are all already years out of contact after they made it overseas. (Sorry William, I know you're an exception ;P ). Effectively, no guide. I tried the second mock-test in between waking up and going to the exam in the afternoon. I have to admit I didn't complete the second mock test.
Arrived at the exam venue at KL Sentral. Saw a cute chinese girl that was holding a book and I surmised she would be the candidate before me. Took a quick glance at the wierd text book she was cradling. "GMAT" . I maintained an air of calm confidence, yet inside I was feeling the edge of an icy cold knife twisting. "GOD DAMN IT!! This exam has a TEXT BOOK??? And it's THAT thick?? These were some of the milder questions with the louder incessant background hum of " I'm so dead....I'm so dead...MY RM900+"
Well, I took the 15 minute time in between her going in and my time to go in by praying. HARD! Cleared my mind. Prayed that I won't panic and I would be able to attempt all questions at full concentration. Went in and attempted the GMAT. Of course I was quite confident I would be able to score along the mid-regions of 700 until before I saw that text book the gal was holding. After that, I left it to God and Dato' Seri Guruji.
End score 620/800. Requirements at ISB is 600+ (Whew!) I did score 5.5/6.0 for the Written part. It must have helped. I cannot remember the topic now but I do remember it being something that I could analyse well and provide strong viewpoints. I was still disappointed with my scores since my dad told me to score 700+ for the GMAT. The only consolation for that was when Duke University sent me a prospectus encouraging me to apply to their course. Coincidentally, my dad had just read a weekend newspaper report on the top business schools worldwide. Duke University was rated No.4 there.
I was focused though. ISB was my only choice and I sat for my GMAT only because ISB required the scores for an admission. So, at the screen right after my GMAT was completed I entered only ISB as the direct recipient of my GMAT scores....
Step 1: completed...
This is the where the interesting part starts. Henceforth, the blog will cater to the general knowledge of all that come in to this site. Be it my family that supported me throughout these years, my darling best buddies, my dear Westportians or my new ISB batchmates.
I will be posting regularly to update everybody about my progress in life. Let's start with the GMAT. Paying for my GMAT was my very first HSBC Visa transaction. Not even 5 minutes had passed when a representative from HSBC called me to make sure I'm still holding the Card in my hand. Yup, it costs a lot in MYR. Close to 1k.
Following this, I got my follow-up materials a few weeks down the line just before my exam appointment. I got to complete one mock test after installing a specialised software on the day before the test. At that point, I was beginning to get a little befuddled due to the total new approach this exam was using to hammer at my mind. I've never tried for any MBA courses before this. I don't have anybody in my family who tried out the GMAT to attempt a Masters overseas. Nope, No cousins, no uncles nor brilliant aunts who stepped away from the shores of Malaysia. The friends who attempted are all already years out of contact after they made it overseas. (Sorry William, I know you're an exception ;P ). Effectively, no guide. I tried the second mock-test in between waking up and going to the exam in the afternoon. I have to admit I didn't complete the second mock test.
Arrived at the exam venue at KL Sentral. Saw a cute chinese girl that was holding a book and I surmised she would be the candidate before me. Took a quick glance at the wierd text book she was cradling. "GMAT" . I maintained an air of calm confidence, yet inside I was feeling the edge of an icy cold knife twisting. "GOD DAMN IT!! This exam has a TEXT BOOK??? And it's THAT thick?? These were some of the milder questions with the louder incessant background hum of " I'm so dead....I'm so dead...MY RM900+"
Well, I took the 15 minute time in between her going in and my time to go in by praying. HARD! Cleared my mind. Prayed that I won't panic and I would be able to attempt all questions at full concentration. Went in and attempted the GMAT. Of course I was quite confident I would be able to score along the mid-regions of 700 until before I saw that text book the gal was holding. After that, I left it to God and Dato' Seri Guruji.
End score 620/800. Requirements at ISB is 600+ (Whew!) I did score 5.5/6.0 for the Written part. It must have helped. I cannot remember the topic now but I do remember it being something that I could analyse well and provide strong viewpoints. I was still disappointed with my scores since my dad told me to score 700+ for the GMAT. The only consolation for that was when Duke University sent me a prospectus encouraging me to apply to their course. Coincidentally, my dad had just read a weekend newspaper report on the top business schools worldwide. Duke University was rated No.4 there.
I was focused though. ISB was my only choice and I sat for my GMAT only because ISB required the scores for an admission. So, at the screen right after my GMAT was completed I entered only ISB as the direct recipient of my GMAT scores....
Step 1: completed...
Monday, December 04, 2006
The Shape of Things To Come
Hey guys,
And after another half-year, I finally re-appear on the blogging scene again. Now I am determined to continue blogging again. Well, anybody who read my blog entry last would realise that I was in a predicament. Little did I realise that I was to be embroiled in a worse predicament. But, this worse predicament comes with a Golden Path. A path to Meteoric RISE!!
Hence the question arises. Do i stay in my little predicament that is about to be solved? Or do I step into raging fires knowing that I not only have a path to follow but, a also a Divine Guide to ensure I stay on the Path? The answer is almost a no-brainer. Any sane risk-taker would say run through the fires, but only I know the extent my failure would burn others. A whole generation may suffer the psychological impacts of my failure. If I fail... =) <--I smile because it is IMPOSSIBLE that I fail. Not as long as my Divine Guide blesses me.
A Divine Guide that is the most Powerful Sitthar in the world. How else would I be able to trust my instincts and go against my parents when they heard of the cost? A Divine Guide that they also have faith in. A Divine Guide that actually has in His Full Divine Grace granted me the opportunity in which I would be able to serve Him, by spreading my knowledge and experiences after joining Rajayoga Power Transcendental Meditation Society of Malaysia to the graduates and intellectuals overseas.
Yes, I do admit that I have dropped a lot of hints and haven't really fleshed out any of the details yet. In fact, in the coming days and weeks I am going to slowly recollect the last few months and the process of how everything has come into place for me. Please bear with me...
And after another half-year, I finally re-appear on the blogging scene again. Now I am determined to continue blogging again. Well, anybody who read my blog entry last would realise that I was in a predicament. Little did I realise that I was to be embroiled in a worse predicament. But, this worse predicament comes with a Golden Path. A path to Meteoric RISE!!
Hence the question arises. Do i stay in my little predicament that is about to be solved? Or do I step into raging fires knowing that I not only have a path to follow but, a also a Divine Guide to ensure I stay on the Path? The answer is almost a no-brainer. Any sane risk-taker would say run through the fires, but only I know the extent my failure would burn others. A whole generation may suffer the psychological impacts of my failure. If I fail... =) <--I smile because it is IMPOSSIBLE that I fail. Not as long as my Divine Guide blesses me.
A Divine Guide that is the most Powerful Sitthar in the world. How else would I be able to trust my instincts and go against my parents when they heard of the cost? A Divine Guide that they also have faith in. A Divine Guide that actually has in His Full Divine Grace granted me the opportunity in which I would be able to serve Him, by spreading my knowledge and experiences after joining Rajayoga Power Transcendental Meditation Society of Malaysia to the graduates and intellectuals overseas.
Yes, I do admit that I have dropped a lot of hints and haven't really fleshed out any of the details yet. In fact, in the coming days and weeks I am going to slowly recollect the last few months and the process of how everything has come into place for me. Please bear with me...
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Life and how it suffocates normal people.
Hey guys,
Well, here i am posting up in my blog after a long time. I am not really sure what i want to write here anymore. Work is killing me in the sense of taking up my time and not really paying me sufficiently. Sigh. I have some ideas as to how i am going to overcome this. Of course, I am not really prepared and i think the best plans are those that twist and turn according to the times. =)
We do live in such times. Times that need constant change that allowes us to flourish. I know that i am capable enough to think it up. The changes that i need. But, can i live with it and can i follow through with the brilliant plans that i come up with? Well, I know that i need to save up some money at least to enable all these to happen. Unfortunately, i am now stuck in a deadlock where i seriously CANNOT save any money. If i have to wait ONE YEAR for a pay raise so that i can live a more comfortable life and start saving, I might just kill myself. Or would i?
Anyways, i have to survive it. I have to hope for the best in life. I already have a few blessings in my life that i have to be thankful for at the moment. I am sure with patience even the most hardest mountain would crumble. What's a year of revelling in the current blessings while waiting for the better stuff to happen in future right? ;)
I have a burning dream. I will live it. I will not die before it lives.....
-Mathan-
Well, here i am posting up in my blog after a long time. I am not really sure what i want to write here anymore. Work is killing me in the sense of taking up my time and not really paying me sufficiently. Sigh. I have some ideas as to how i am going to overcome this. Of course, I am not really prepared and i think the best plans are those that twist and turn according to the times. =)
We do live in such times. Times that need constant change that allowes us to flourish. I know that i am capable enough to think it up. The changes that i need. But, can i live with it and can i follow through with the brilliant plans that i come up with? Well, I know that i need to save up some money at least to enable all these to happen. Unfortunately, i am now stuck in a deadlock where i seriously CANNOT save any money. If i have to wait ONE YEAR for a pay raise so that i can live a more comfortable life and start saving, I might just kill myself. Or would i?
Anyways, i have to survive it. I have to hope for the best in life. I already have a few blessings in my life that i have to be thankful for at the moment. I am sure with patience even the most hardest mountain would crumble. What's a year of revelling in the current blessings while waiting for the better stuff to happen in future right? ;)
I have a burning dream. I will live it. I will not die before it lives.....
-Mathan-
Monday, January 09, 2006
The beginning has ended...
Hey guys and gals,
Well, let's see. I had a hell of a New Years!! The guys told me earlier that they wanted to go to Bangkok Jazz. So i had taken off on the 1st of January. It was a great party that we had. Renu and Jane came so it made the whole thing merrier. Others were ME, Adrian, Pei Tze, Ping, Risdan, Ben, and Ping's fren Yvonne.
We went to Goucho Grill beside Bangkok Jazz for our dinner and unfortunately even though the food is highly recommended by Pei Tze's colleague during normal days, their special New Year's Menu left a LOT to be desired. They hiked up the prices and gave sucky food. Thank god we could go all out on their salad bar and that's what we did.
After dinner Pei Tze, ME, Jane and Renuka opened a Jack Daniels to get inside Bangkok Jazz and the rest paid the cover charge. Other than that, i have to say the music was good! The atmosphere was good and we were dancing all out after the New Year Countdown!! One of the better New Years i've had.
Whille having dinner i had the chance to make a call and celebrate with someone 3 hours ahead of me, since her new year was happening at that point. Happiest call i had until i told her that i missed her on the phone. Then everybody was laughing at me here and when she said she missed me too, her frens were laughing at her there in Australia.
Well, the night ended in a little bit of a bad note though. Our dear Risdan got drunk and started going around hugging everybody. Later when he reached the car park, he vomited a second time and was dragged to Ben's car. Everybody was tired but due to the road blocks we took a long time to get back to Adrian's place... especially with Ben not really knowing which roads were blocked and he kept going in circles. Finally, when we got to PJ my car tyres went into a big hole and got punctured. I had to stop in an unknown car park near Adrian's place to change tyres. Thank you to Pei Tze for jacking the car up while in a beautiful dress. Renuka for holding the tools while half sleepy and Adrian for walking all the way to us and helping me with the whole tyre changing process.
Anyway made it home the next day, just in time to go to centre with family in my new car. It was nice celebrating New Year's with family too. =)
On a last note, i just found out the date that's going to change my life. 25th of January, 2006.. I am dying with anticipation. I pray everyone would be happy at the end of the days that is to follow. Please everyone pray for happiness in my life too la.. thank you!!
-Mathan-
Well, let's see. I had a hell of a New Years!! The guys told me earlier that they wanted to go to Bangkok Jazz. So i had taken off on the 1st of January. It was a great party that we had. Renu and Jane came so it made the whole thing merrier. Others were ME, Adrian, Pei Tze, Ping, Risdan, Ben, and Ping's fren Yvonne.
We went to Goucho Grill beside Bangkok Jazz for our dinner and unfortunately even though the food is highly recommended by Pei Tze's colleague during normal days, their special New Year's Menu left a LOT to be desired. They hiked up the prices and gave sucky food. Thank god we could go all out on their salad bar and that's what we did.
After dinner Pei Tze, ME, Jane and Renuka opened a Jack Daniels to get inside Bangkok Jazz and the rest paid the cover charge. Other than that, i have to say the music was good! The atmosphere was good and we were dancing all out after the New Year Countdown!! One of the better New Years i've had.
Whille having dinner i had the chance to make a call and celebrate with someone 3 hours ahead of me, since her new year was happening at that point. Happiest call i had until i told her that i missed her on the phone. Then everybody was laughing at me here and when she said she missed me too, her frens were laughing at her there in Australia.
Well, the night ended in a little bit of a bad note though. Our dear Risdan got drunk and started going around hugging everybody. Later when he reached the car park, he vomited a second time and was dragged to Ben's car. Everybody was tired but due to the road blocks we took a long time to get back to Adrian's place... especially with Ben not really knowing which roads were blocked and he kept going in circles. Finally, when we got to PJ my car tyres went into a big hole and got punctured. I had to stop in an unknown car park near Adrian's place to change tyres. Thank you to Pei Tze for jacking the car up while in a beautiful dress. Renuka for holding the tools while half sleepy and Adrian for walking all the way to us and helping me with the whole tyre changing process.
Anyway made it home the next day, just in time to go to centre with family in my new car. It was nice celebrating New Year's with family too. =)
On a last note, i just found out the date that's going to change my life. 25th of January, 2006.. I am dying with anticipation. I pray everyone would be happy at the end of the days that is to follow. Please everyone pray for happiness in my life too la.. thank you!!
-Mathan-
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Well the END is here...Happy new one guys n gals!!
Yeap ladies and gentlemen,
It is the end of the year now. It has been about 4 months that i did not write anything in the blog. Sometimes i just had a bad day and i didn't want to write about it anymore. Sometimes, i really would have had a great day. It was so great that i did not want to share it with anyone actually. Sigh, strange how i at those times lost hope in the saying "Happiness shared is doubled ; Sorrow shared is divided" I just wanted to collect and keep what i had to myself, trying my best not to let it go even one bit.
Anyway, i have started to work in proper now. No more job skipping. No more training. Totally an employee of Klang Multi Terminals Sdn. Bhd which runs the best port in the country also known as WESTPORT...eheheh!! Working 3 shifts, i am attached to Group D and i am their Shift Operations Executive. This means during my shift i am totally in charge of whatever happens in the Container Yard. Most of the times i just have to make sure that the Yard is traffic jam free. Company is generous, bosses are understanding for the most part, career path is great with the upcoming expansions. All is left to be done is me learning my job and performing at it.
Next, i have to say my active life is sort off in the slow down phase. Need to change that and really try my best to find time to do sports. I am not going to blame busy working hours as a reason for not exercising and start to grow FAT like most people do. We HAVE a choice, and i choose to make myself MORE tired! Hahaha!!~
Hmmnn what else to talk about. Do i mention love? I guess i should. Since maybe one day i want to look back at these postings and remind myself of the changes that happened in my life. Hahaaahaah... These are the silly things that forgetful people do. Anyway to start off, the one lady that i was interested in the most for all this time finally jumped a cliff to her death. This is what happened in my heart la. She is alive but the one thing she could say to make me hate her, she said it. And thus my feelings that were growing strong for a year like a young tree in my heart just got dosed with Paraquat. Poisoned the whole system. And well, like any self-respecting male i tried to avoid her but she didn't let me. (Hahahaha...no surprise there seeing how silly she can be sometimes.)
Of course as i have seen happening in my life, every thing small or big that happens in my life happens for a reason. Seemingly, almost overnight another bright and beautiful young lady stepped in and we both happen to be crazy for each other right now. I have to say absolutely no traces of the earlier feeling is in my heart anymore. It just got wiped out and nothing triggers me to feel warm towards the earlier girl anymore. I tried my best to delve and make sure it is not some form of rebound that i am experiencing...
What i do know is the present is what counts. No matter what i have said or done. The NOW is what matters and now i think i am falling hopelessly in love with the lady that stepped into my life. She might think of herself as attractive and that she chose me among the bunch of guys that hit on her and try to get her attention (seriously it happens. I am not exaggerating here). But, i know how particular i am about my own choices too, and she fits into my life perfectly. Everything new that i learn about her just makes me realise how much more right she is for me...how freaky is that? =P.. well, anyway i know i am going to try my best! Since everything has been going right for me, in this matter i will fight for it.
Ok.. work, sport and love has been covered. Next up is about my family and meditation. Family wise there have been some strains between members. We all love each other and we all do not want to let go of each other or give up on each other. Just that increasingly there are more individual opinions and well, as is the case arguments are bound to happen. (Heaven knows what's gonna happen when i finally tell them about my relationship issue...=P) And every argument sort of stands in the way until it is resolved. I am trying my best to stay out of them so that i can help to resolve them. Hahahaha....Of course sometimes i am caught up in them too. Normal stuff between families la, just that its happening more frequently than i am used to.
Thanks to the fact that the whole family is in meditation i think we have this one common ground where we let go all personal issues and deal with it professionally and peacefully. It keeps the communications open and quite a lot of the times those of us with arguments would find the answer in our meditations as to what we are willing to let go and compromise.
Yes, this is the part i keep trying to tell my friends but they have NEVER listened to me. The meditation that i do whole-heartedly. The centre that i go to voluntarily. The power given to us there is REAL!! The power that our Guruji has is REAL and it is Divine in nature. (no magic involved and in fact no one with ANY magic will be able to penetrate the protection we gain) The true essence of a Divine Guru is in enabling His disciple to be able to achieve all the levels that the Guruji himself has reached. I have felt it since the day i took the course and i am still feeling it in the 3 years that i have been in the centre. There is a power within me that grows and helps me the more i do the meditation that i have learnt in the centre. The power even enhances my prayers making them come true most of the time. It is NOT in my mind...it is NOT just my belief...It definitely is NOT only for me or my family. About 100,000 people have taken the course in Malaysia and the centre grows rapidly. Yet i have one regret. Not even ONE of my friends listened to me and took the course to benefit from it themselves. They say money is a factor, yet they go shopping. They say time is a factor, yet they go to cinemas to watch movies. They say about not being interested and that it is too early... bla bla bla, yet the course is all about personal gain and advancement all the way. Why do you want to WAIT for that when you see that I am benefiting now?
Lastly, we come to the latest benefit that i have gained from doing my meditations. I prayed and got myself a car. Brand new. In my prayer i envisioned the number plate to be BHX 96. The number just lari a little bit. I got BHX 960 since the tendering for the BHX 2 digit numbers were closed before i got the registration card. Everything else about the car is as i imagined it to be. Even the repayment is lesser than RM 500, which is one of the things i wanted. If you buy the same car now, the repayment would be more slightly as there is no more purchase discount. The tuesday before i got my new car, in fact i got into an accident driving in the Kancil at my workplace (the Container Yard isn't a small place so i need it). Never knew what happened but at the end of it, instead of crashing at the back of a trailer and causing a funeral(mine), i just hit the tyres and bounced back. I know the protection i have took care of everything when i lost concentration at the wheel and looked off to the equipment on the right behind my shoulders. Foolish? yeah....but i'm still alive ain't I? :) Convinced yet? :D
Signing off for year 2005!! May we have a great and ACCIDENTLESS year 2006....=P
-Mathanaseelan-
It is the end of the year now. It has been about 4 months that i did not write anything in the blog. Sometimes i just had a bad day and i didn't want to write about it anymore. Sometimes, i really would have had a great day. It was so great that i did not want to share it with anyone actually. Sigh, strange how i at those times lost hope in the saying "Happiness shared is doubled ; Sorrow shared is divided" I just wanted to collect and keep what i had to myself, trying my best not to let it go even one bit.
Anyway, i have started to work in proper now. No more job skipping. No more training. Totally an employee of Klang Multi Terminals Sdn. Bhd which runs the best port in the country also known as WESTPORT...eheheh!! Working 3 shifts, i am attached to Group D and i am their Shift Operations Executive. This means during my shift i am totally in charge of whatever happens in the Container Yard. Most of the times i just have to make sure that the Yard is traffic jam free. Company is generous, bosses are understanding for the most part, career path is great with the upcoming expansions. All is left to be done is me learning my job and performing at it.
Next, i have to say my active life is sort off in the slow down phase. Need to change that and really try my best to find time to do sports. I am not going to blame busy working hours as a reason for not exercising and start to grow FAT like most people do. We HAVE a choice, and i choose to make myself MORE tired! Hahaha!!~
Hmmnn what else to talk about. Do i mention love? I guess i should. Since maybe one day i want to look back at these postings and remind myself of the changes that happened in my life. Hahaaahaah... These are the silly things that forgetful people do. Anyway to start off, the one lady that i was interested in the most for all this time finally jumped a cliff to her death. This is what happened in my heart la. She is alive but the one thing she could say to make me hate her, she said it. And thus my feelings that were growing strong for a year like a young tree in my heart just got dosed with Paraquat. Poisoned the whole system. And well, like any self-respecting male i tried to avoid her but she didn't let me. (Hahahaha...no surprise there seeing how silly she can be sometimes.)
Of course as i have seen happening in my life, every thing small or big that happens in my life happens for a reason. Seemingly, almost overnight another bright and beautiful young lady stepped in and we both happen to be crazy for each other right now. I have to say absolutely no traces of the earlier feeling is in my heart anymore. It just got wiped out and nothing triggers me to feel warm towards the earlier girl anymore. I tried my best to delve and make sure it is not some form of rebound that i am experiencing...
What i do know is the present is what counts. No matter what i have said or done. The NOW is what matters and now i think i am falling hopelessly in love with the lady that stepped into my life. She might think of herself as attractive and that she chose me among the bunch of guys that hit on her and try to get her attention (seriously it happens. I am not exaggerating here). But, i know how particular i am about my own choices too, and she fits into my life perfectly. Everything new that i learn about her just makes me realise how much more right she is for me...how freaky is that? =P.. well, anyway i know i am going to try my best! Since everything has been going right for me, in this matter i will fight for it.
Ok.. work, sport and love has been covered. Next up is about my family and meditation. Family wise there have been some strains between members. We all love each other and we all do not want to let go of each other or give up on each other. Just that increasingly there are more individual opinions and well, as is the case arguments are bound to happen. (Heaven knows what's gonna happen when i finally tell them about my relationship issue...=P) And every argument sort of stands in the way until it is resolved. I am trying my best to stay out of them so that i can help to resolve them. Hahahaha....Of course sometimes i am caught up in them too. Normal stuff between families la, just that its happening more frequently than i am used to.
Thanks to the fact that the whole family is in meditation i think we have this one common ground where we let go all personal issues and deal with it professionally and peacefully. It keeps the communications open and quite a lot of the times those of us with arguments would find the answer in our meditations as to what we are willing to let go and compromise.
Yes, this is the part i keep trying to tell my friends but they have NEVER listened to me. The meditation that i do whole-heartedly. The centre that i go to voluntarily. The power given to us there is REAL!! The power that our Guruji has is REAL and it is Divine in nature. (no magic involved and in fact no one with ANY magic will be able to penetrate the protection we gain) The true essence of a Divine Guru is in enabling His disciple to be able to achieve all the levels that the Guruji himself has reached. I have felt it since the day i took the course and i am still feeling it in the 3 years that i have been in the centre. There is a power within me that grows and helps me the more i do the meditation that i have learnt in the centre. The power even enhances my prayers making them come true most of the time. It is NOT in my mind...it is NOT just my belief...It definitely is NOT only for me or my family. About 100,000 people have taken the course in Malaysia and the centre grows rapidly. Yet i have one regret. Not even ONE of my friends listened to me and took the course to benefit from it themselves. They say money is a factor, yet they go shopping. They say time is a factor, yet they go to cinemas to watch movies. They say about not being interested and that it is too early... bla bla bla, yet the course is all about personal gain and advancement all the way. Why do you want to WAIT for that when you see that I am benefiting now?
Lastly, we come to the latest benefit that i have gained from doing my meditations. I prayed and got myself a car. Brand new. In my prayer i envisioned the number plate to be BHX 96. The number just lari a little bit. I got BHX 960 since the tendering for the BHX 2 digit numbers were closed before i got the registration card. Everything else about the car is as i imagined it to be. Even the repayment is lesser than RM 500, which is one of the things i wanted. If you buy the same car now, the repayment would be more slightly as there is no more purchase discount. The tuesday before i got my new car, in fact i got into an accident driving in the Kancil at my workplace (the Container Yard isn't a small place so i need it). Never knew what happened but at the end of it, instead of crashing at the back of a trailer and causing a funeral(mine), i just hit the tyres and bounced back. I know the protection i have took care of everything when i lost concentration at the wheel and looked off to the equipment on the right behind my shoulders. Foolish? yeah....but i'm still alive ain't I? :) Convinced yet? :D
Signing off for year 2005!! May we have a great and ACCIDENTLESS year 2006....=P
-Mathanaseelan-
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Disastrousness at its best!!~Part 2
Hmmnn...Guys n Gals!~
The process has begun. I am trying to question as deeply as i can. I am trying to see what is fundamentally ME! ; and what is just a layer on me. So far, i have felt a difference in the air around me. (Hmmnn....or did i not take a shower this morning?Sometimes deep questions like these are asked)
Of course, the next question which is a continuation from the last part is, "What do I want?" This question is currently put on hold. Ahahahahah!!~ Well i need to define myself first. Then realise why i am interested in the stuff that I am interested in. It can't be for the sake of interest alone. There has to be something more to motivate me to actually start them and then to pursue them. I feel there should be a goal for why I want to succeed in that particular field. I mean people do it instinctively and i maybe did it instinctively for the WRONG reasons. Or you DON'T need a goal to learn something like the guitar?
Of course in the last post i did 'exhale' some of the stuff i have defined as "stuff that Mathan hates". Those that read, please pay ATTENTION to it. Simple and extremely accurate information coming straight from the source. Next, we shall expand to things that i LIKE. :D Yay!~ I love reading. I read for escapism. I read to see, can i learn something new that everybody else reading the same text overlooked. Like my question to Elly that day.
"If Adam and Eve were the first Humans to be created and before them there was only God, the Garden of Eden and the Angels. The moment Eve ate from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil (hope i got it right) Eve immediately realised her nakedness and covered herself. She then gave the fruit to her husband Adam who at once realised his own nakedness and covered himself too. So, from being totally impartial and naive beings they 'knew' things courtesy of the fruit. This knowledge was supposed to be reserved only for God. At this point, God banished them from the Garden of Eden before they 'makan' the fruit of the Tree of Life. It was a stroke of brilliance for not trusting them anymore and sending them away, especially with the damn serpent running (slithering?) around loose. But why is it WRONG? Why is it WRONG in the eyes of GOD that something HE created (a human) is naked? What did GOD have in reference in his infinite wisdom to compare this idea with? I mean the idea of Good and Evil. Simply said i am looking at it in a one track mind while God would have looked at the problem in a Omniscient view. The question would be,"Why after putting all the pieces of the jigsaw in the same place, God would be represented as having walked away? ...and the BEST question would be why did he not send any of his servants to stop the event from ever taking place as God would have known full well this is a possibility to happen. Why come back after the event and ask Adam what is he hiding? Meaning the guy didn't even have enough time to throw away the 'evidence' before God was present again.
Actually, even though i am mentioning God a lot and questioning a lot in the same sentences i do not mean any disrespect. I just want to point something that i feel, as a human touch to the telling of the way it happened. Something that i feel has the limitations of human thought imposed to make the story... well, not so Universal anymore but from the point of view of that person. Anyway, feel free to flame me anytime. I know my questions have large loopholes in them as well. Ehehehe.!!~ So, help me find them to make my argument stronger and more penetrating and accurate rather than just shooting blindly.
Ok see, this is why my frens ask me to keep my explanations short.
Anyway, other than reading and asking absurd questions that annoy others but interests me. I also love to play sports in a general note. Nothing specific and not focusing to win. But, i want to be able to learn the many sports available in the world and be somewhat good at them. Sigh, i regret never starting out on the Extreme sports path while i was younger. At least skateboarding or roller-blading would have been wicked.
Next, i really cannot think of anything other than trying to play up tunes on my guitar. It is fun but it can get frustrating. So i had a few goals to keep me going. Sadly once i lost my old guitar and my folder which had some original stuff that i liked in it, I really cannot recapture the original momentum i used to have. Heck i don't even know how to play the tunes i used to play effortlessly then. Trying to build myself around the blockade and focus on other songs though. Heheeh...it's working somewhat. Any other approach i could try ladies and gentlemen? Just shoot man!~ I'll see if it helps.
Lastly i used to have a passion for TV, but it has really waned in the recent years after my SPM. I now stick to Animes and other TV series that i can d/l from the NET, like Smallville which is my absolute Favourite!!~ Daisuki desu!!!~ I mean i started watching the show with skepticism but with good reviews from Jeevan. But, it just caught on to me. I am gonna be so lost after season 7....which is reputed to be the final season. Sigh!~ And 5 is already coming up...=(. Yup, that's how crazy i am about that show.
Lately i've been paying more attention to ways of taking care of myself la. So, that i dun just drop dead when my parents are not around. Ahaha...So this is a growing interest of mine. To learn to survive in the normal world doing normal chores and cooking and eating normal food rather than wishing i was in the forest going ape and looking for bananas. (No!~ it hasn't happened before. Just a JOKE~Sheesh!!~)
I guess these are the most major of stuff that i LIKE in my life. Anyway i have been typing non-stop for so long now. I am totally blur. Feel so tired. Gotta..go...res-
-Mathan-
The process has begun. I am trying to question as deeply as i can. I am trying to see what is fundamentally ME! ; and what is just a layer on me. So far, i have felt a difference in the air around me. (Hmmnn....or did i not take a shower this morning?Sometimes deep questions like these are asked)
Of course, the next question which is a continuation from the last part is, "What do I want?" This question is currently put on hold. Ahahahahah!!~ Well i need to define myself first. Then realise why i am interested in the stuff that I am interested in. It can't be for the sake of interest alone. There has to be something more to motivate me to actually start them and then to pursue them. I feel there should be a goal for why I want to succeed in that particular field. I mean people do it instinctively and i maybe did it instinctively for the WRONG reasons. Or you DON'T need a goal to learn something like the guitar?
Of course in the last post i did 'exhale' some of the stuff i have defined as "stuff that Mathan hates". Those that read, please pay ATTENTION to it. Simple and extremely accurate information coming straight from the source. Next, we shall expand to things that i LIKE. :D Yay!~ I love reading. I read for escapism. I read to see, can i learn something new that everybody else reading the same text overlooked. Like my question to Elly that day.
"If Adam and Eve were the first Humans to be created and before them there was only God, the Garden of Eden and the Angels. The moment Eve ate from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil (hope i got it right) Eve immediately realised her nakedness and covered herself. She then gave the fruit to her husband Adam who at once realised his own nakedness and covered himself too. So, from being totally impartial and naive beings they 'knew' things courtesy of the fruit. This knowledge was supposed to be reserved only for God. At this point, God banished them from the Garden of Eden before they 'makan' the fruit of the Tree of Life. It was a stroke of brilliance for not trusting them anymore and sending them away, especially with the damn serpent running (slithering?) around loose. But why is it WRONG? Why is it WRONG in the eyes of GOD that something HE created (a human) is naked? What did GOD have in reference in his infinite wisdom to compare this idea with? I mean the idea of Good and Evil. Simply said i am looking at it in a one track mind while God would have looked at the problem in a Omniscient view. The question would be,"Why after putting all the pieces of the jigsaw in the same place, God would be represented as having walked away? ...and the BEST question would be why did he not send any of his servants to stop the event from ever taking place as God would have known full well this is a possibility to happen. Why come back after the event and ask Adam what is he hiding? Meaning the guy didn't even have enough time to throw away the 'evidence' before God was present again.
Actually, even though i am mentioning God a lot and questioning a lot in the same sentences i do not mean any disrespect. I just want to point something that i feel, as a human touch to the telling of the way it happened. Something that i feel has the limitations of human thought imposed to make the story... well, not so Universal anymore but from the point of view of that person. Anyway, feel free to flame me anytime. I know my questions have large loopholes in them as well. Ehehehe.!!~ So, help me find them to make my argument stronger and more penetrating and accurate rather than just shooting blindly.
Ok see, this is why my frens ask me to keep my explanations short.
Anyway, other than reading and asking absurd questions that annoy others but interests me. I also love to play sports in a general note. Nothing specific and not focusing to win. But, i want to be able to learn the many sports available in the world and be somewhat good at them. Sigh, i regret never starting out on the Extreme sports path while i was younger. At least skateboarding or roller-blading would have been wicked.
Next, i really cannot think of anything other than trying to play up tunes on my guitar. It is fun but it can get frustrating. So i had a few goals to keep me going. Sadly once i lost my old guitar and my folder which had some original stuff that i liked in it, I really cannot recapture the original momentum i used to have. Heck i don't even know how to play the tunes i used to play effortlessly then. Trying to build myself around the blockade and focus on other songs though. Heheeh...it's working somewhat. Any other approach i could try ladies and gentlemen? Just shoot man!~ I'll see if it helps.
Lastly i used to have a passion for TV, but it has really waned in the recent years after my SPM. I now stick to Animes and other TV series that i can d/l from the NET, like Smallville which is my absolute Favourite!!~ Daisuki desu!!!~ I mean i started watching the show with skepticism but with good reviews from Jeevan. But, it just caught on to me. I am gonna be so lost after season 7....which is reputed to be the final season. Sigh!~ And 5 is already coming up...=(. Yup, that's how crazy i am about that show.
Lately i've been paying more attention to ways of taking care of myself la. So, that i dun just drop dead when my parents are not around. Ahaha...So this is a growing interest of mine. To learn to survive in the normal world doing normal chores and cooking and eating normal food rather than wishing i was in the forest going ape and looking for bananas. (No!~ it hasn't happened before. Just a JOKE~Sheesh!!~)
I guess these are the most major of stuff that i LIKE in my life. Anyway i have been typing non-stop for so long now. I am totally blur. Feel so tired. Gotta..go...res-
-Mathan-
Monday, July 18, 2005
Disastrousness at its best!!~Part 1
Hi guys,
Well, i mean i don't think anybody reads this blog anymore since there has been inactivity for so long dy. So, hi Cyberspace. Hmmnn...things were moving in good ways but then i have been wasting my time waiting for the new job in Westport. Horribly long time i have wasted. In fact i resigned my job in Teletech to wait for this job and i am no longer sure if it was the right decision. But, i have to say that my friends have been quite supportive and i am really glad for your kind encouragements and motivations. THANKS!!~
Anyway, i have a lot of questions in my head now. What exactly DO i want to do with my life? I know deep in my heart that i am hell capable of more than waiting for a fucking job in Westport. Then what is holding me back? Why am i not saying "well, fuck that!", and going on with my life? What the bloody hell am i waiting for? To work THEN find out what i like to do or not? Isn't that stupid? It's ME!!~ I should be able to figure it out myself.
Got to thank Joe for that chat we had last week. I mean it really opened my eyes to the stuff that i have been totally keeping in the middle of a fortress in my heart. Starting with things that i HATE. Yeah, have to be a bit more open about it. Keeping it inside is not going to make any differences is there? I become a nice, funny guy but people walk over me. They think making fun of my opinions, feelings, ideas and ME in general is funny. Well, it's NOT!~ I hate it. PLease make more intelligent jokes like we used to when we were all younger. Let's make creative jokes about the world around us and laugh rather than target ourselves. Of course, i know 'shooting' me for a mistake i made is totally acceptable and i am not so moronic as to say u cannot blame me....PLEASE do refrain from repeating it too many times though. I don't repeat your mistakes like a parakeet do i? I accept you rite? So , just bloody accept ME k?
Well, i mean i don't think anybody reads this blog anymore since there has been inactivity for so long dy. So, hi Cyberspace. Hmmnn...things were moving in good ways but then i have been wasting my time waiting for the new job in Westport. Horribly long time i have wasted. In fact i resigned my job in Teletech to wait for this job and i am no longer sure if it was the right decision. But, i have to say that my friends have been quite supportive and i am really glad for your kind encouragements and motivations. THANKS!!~
Anyway, i have a lot of questions in my head now. What exactly DO i want to do with my life? I know deep in my heart that i am hell capable of more than waiting for a fucking job in Westport. Then what is holding me back? Why am i not saying "well, fuck that!", and going on with my life? What the bloody hell am i waiting for? To work THEN find out what i like to do or not? Isn't that stupid? It's ME!!~ I should be able to figure it out myself.
Got to thank Joe for that chat we had last week. I mean it really opened my eyes to the stuff that i have been totally keeping in the middle of a fortress in my heart. Starting with things that i HATE. Yeah, have to be a bit more open about it. Keeping it inside is not going to make any differences is there? I become a nice, funny guy but people walk over me. They think making fun of my opinions, feelings, ideas and ME in general is funny. Well, it's NOT!~ I hate it. PLease make more intelligent jokes like we used to when we were all younger. Let's make creative jokes about the world around us and laugh rather than target ourselves. Of course, i know 'shooting' me for a mistake i made is totally acceptable and i am not so moronic as to say u cannot blame me....PLEASE do refrain from repeating it too many times though. I don't repeat your mistakes like a parakeet do i? I accept you rite? So , just bloody accept ME k?
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Oh my darling, Lady Life!!~
Hey guys,
Well, life is a beautiful and mysterious entity. Just like the women that i have met in my life. Of course when i say "the women in my life", i mean those that i fell deeply in love with. When i went seeking for their heart and their commitment to me, all i got was nothing. Yet, the moment i left them alone they willingly came closer than they had ever been, bared to me a part of their memories, thoughts and trusts. They proved me wrong everytime i thought "she hates me". They did have love, but in a different way from what i felt.
To you who knew how i felt, thanks for your support and continued love to me. I will cherish it no matter where i am, when i am, what i am. To you who didn't know i loved you, i wish i would get ONE chance to mention it to you some time before the end of our lives. Hey you're special! =P You deserve to know that. This is the simple logic.
As to the connection with Life. When i pursued the best of 'her' and i wanted it all from 'her'. She turned a deaf ear to me and showered her love elsewhere(or so i thought). Yet, the moment i told my self that "she doesn't love me" she is proving me wrong and turning around and "showering" me with oppurtunities that i cannot afford to miss. She is giving me her love and trust in a different way than i expected. I cannot believe my eyes, yet i am being blessed at every turn in the recent chapters of my life.
Thus, i would like to thank all the women in my life. You darlings taught me the lesson (through the last 24 years of my life) of doing the best with what i get to work with in my hands and not with what my ego expected. So, yeah i am doing the best with what i have. Things seem to be looking up in the coming months for starters.
I love my life; I hope she loves me back too~~!!
-Mathan-
Well, life is a beautiful and mysterious entity. Just like the women that i have met in my life. Of course when i say "the women in my life", i mean those that i fell deeply in love with. When i went seeking for their heart and their commitment to me, all i got was nothing. Yet, the moment i left them alone they willingly came closer than they had ever been, bared to me a part of their memories, thoughts and trusts. They proved me wrong everytime i thought "she hates me". They did have love, but in a different way from what i felt.
To you who knew how i felt, thanks for your support and continued love to me. I will cherish it no matter where i am, when i am, what i am. To you who didn't know i loved you, i wish i would get ONE chance to mention it to you some time before the end of our lives. Hey you're special! =P You deserve to know that. This is the simple logic.
As to the connection with Life. When i pursued the best of 'her' and i wanted it all from 'her'. She turned a deaf ear to me and showered her love elsewhere(or so i thought). Yet, the moment i told my self that "she doesn't love me" she is proving me wrong and turning around and "showering" me with oppurtunities that i cannot afford to miss. She is giving me her love and trust in a different way than i expected. I cannot believe my eyes, yet i am being blessed at every turn in the recent chapters of my life.
Thus, i would like to thank all the women in my life. You darlings taught me the lesson (through the last 24 years of my life) of doing the best with what i get to work with in my hands and not with what my ego expected. So, yeah i am doing the best with what i have. Things seem to be looking up in the coming months for starters.
I love my life; I hope she loves me back too~~!!
-Mathan-
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Been some time
Hey guys,
It's been some time since i last posted here. Things are starting to look upbeat again. I have a job now. Looks like my name is going to be attached to Teletech Sdn. Bhd. or the time being. I am undergoing training to be a Customer Service Representative for SIA.
Training has been interesting and the people there are very interesting as well. =). Singaporeans, ex-call center employees for Maxis and Amex and Astro, a married lady, a totally cute and innocent young girl, SIM, a stewardess that dropped out from training a few days back....things have been definitely interesting.
Training itself was a bit tedious in the beginning when they were trying thier best to download all the knowledge into our heads. But then now they are more concerned about us trying to bring it all back out to solve problems, in the MOST professional way. Hahahaa...So things are exciting.
Hopefully, i can really clique with the seniors once i am out on the floor answering calls because we would be asigned to different workstations and workgroups. If only the pay was a few hundred more than it currently is, I am sure that i would feel a lot happier working there. As it is there are a lot of rules and regulations about how our salary is paid out to us. Ahhh whatever, i will take this as a blessing and learn as much as i can answering calls and helping people before i take the next step in my career.
Well that's all for the moment. Nothing much else seems to be happening at the moment.
Peace out you guys!~
-Mathan-
It's been some time since i last posted here. Things are starting to look upbeat again. I have a job now. Looks like my name is going to be attached to Teletech Sdn. Bhd. or the time being. I am undergoing training to be a Customer Service Representative for SIA.
Training has been interesting and the people there are very interesting as well. =). Singaporeans, ex-call center employees for Maxis and Amex and Astro, a married lady, a totally cute and innocent young girl, SIM, a stewardess that dropped out from training a few days back....things have been definitely interesting.
Training itself was a bit tedious in the beginning when they were trying thier best to download all the knowledge into our heads. But then now they are more concerned about us trying to bring it all back out to solve problems, in the MOST professional way. Hahahaa...So things are exciting.
Hopefully, i can really clique with the seniors once i am out on the floor answering calls because we would be asigned to different workstations and workgroups. If only the pay was a few hundred more than it currently is, I am sure that i would feel a lot happier working there. As it is there are a lot of rules and regulations about how our salary is paid out to us. Ahhh whatever, i will take this as a blessing and learn as much as i can answering calls and helping people before i take the next step in my career.
Well that's all for the moment. Nothing much else seems to be happening at the moment.
Peace out you guys!~
-Mathan-
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
The Divine Move in Mysterious Ways
Hey guys.
I am not sure of my current topic at the moment. I just sat in front of the pc and i am sort of staring blankly and wondering what am i supposed to write. Maybe i will just mention this little trip i had to Singapore Airlines KL office yesterday. I guess it was an experience of seeing "Divine movement in mysterious ways".
Last week, my mother had this little intuition burst to ask me to go to work in Singapore. At the same time, i recieved news of job offers in the Singapore Airlines office in KL from not one but 2 totally different people. Both of them mentioned the same job which is the Customer Service Agent paying about RM1600.
It seems a bit far-fetched i know. Yet, these are the little 'clues' that i am USED to getting in the last 3 years since i joined my Meditation Centre. If I honestly am seeking for an answer and i really want to get it, somehow from somewhere a person would mention a little morsel of information in passing that i would be able to use to solve my problems. (So yeah, this is one of the reasons why i always ask you guys to come have a look at my Centre, for free la. The joining part where you pay RM730, you guys can think about it later. Come to find out formally the FULL BENEFITS you can gain because i am not supposed to divulge too much info outside the Centre also =p!~)
Anyway, back to what happened. The clues led me finally to the SIA office yesterday. I didn't go last week itself as soon as i got the clues because i had to go to Serdang and make that whole ZOO trip with the guys to celebrate Jane Chuah's birthday. This made my parents a bit angry and on one of the nights, in the middle of lecturing to me about procrastination, they actually told me things that i never guessed was a part of my extended family's history. So, for this once procrastination worked out well(Haha!!~).
In the end, i reached the office to actually NOT get the job. Yeah, you heard rite! NOT to get the job. The receptionist told me that the opening was taken up last week itself. She also told me that looking at me I wouldn't last in that job at all. It is a position for SPM leavers and more suitable for girls. The job also doesn't have much upward mobility, i.e:- not much in the way of promotions.
She then proceeded to LECTURE me. Halfway through i realised that i was led to that place, with all the 'clues' NOT to actually get a job but in a way I was set to be there to listen to her instruct me. A lot of the things she said rang in the same tone of my parents' advices to me. Seriously though, coming from a total stranger it had a totally different feeling to it. It actually made me look at the points carefully and superimpose it with what my parents had already said because she was talking from a different level, a different angle and a different perspective. So yeah, i actually thought deeper about all those things that my parents had already said.
Next she went on to tell me about corporate life. [Stuff that you won't learn even in Harvard Business School, right Zack ;)?] Honestly though, it did feel that way. Here was someone that is experienced working for firms and she is willing to give me advise for FREE. Which idiot would not listen? I just soaked it all up as much as i can. The one hour plus i spent listening to that lady, i think i learnt enough of pure knowledge that can be gained in one semester in MMU. Plus whether or not she realised it, she actually gave me an outline of what i should be doing in the next 2 years. Interestingly, this was my question during my prayers!!~ "What path should i choose now?".
The Divine move in mysterious ways to answer our prayers.
-Mathan-
I am not sure of my current topic at the moment. I just sat in front of the pc and i am sort of staring blankly and wondering what am i supposed to write. Maybe i will just mention this little trip i had to Singapore Airlines KL office yesterday. I guess it was an experience of seeing "Divine movement in mysterious ways".
Last week, my mother had this little intuition burst to ask me to go to work in Singapore. At the same time, i recieved news of job offers in the Singapore Airlines office in KL from not one but 2 totally different people. Both of them mentioned the same job which is the Customer Service Agent paying about RM1600.
It seems a bit far-fetched i know. Yet, these are the little 'clues' that i am USED to getting in the last 3 years since i joined my Meditation Centre. If I honestly am seeking for an answer and i really want to get it, somehow from somewhere a person would mention a little morsel of information in passing that i would be able to use to solve my problems. (So yeah, this is one of the reasons why i always ask you guys to come have a look at my Centre, for free la. The joining part where you pay RM730, you guys can think about it later. Come to find out formally the FULL BENEFITS you can gain because i am not supposed to divulge too much info outside the Centre also =p!~)
Anyway, back to what happened. The clues led me finally to the SIA office yesterday. I didn't go last week itself as soon as i got the clues because i had to go to Serdang and make that whole ZOO trip with the guys to celebrate Jane Chuah's birthday. This made my parents a bit angry and on one of the nights, in the middle of lecturing to me about procrastination, they actually told me things that i never guessed was a part of my extended family's history. So, for this once procrastination worked out well(Haha!!~).
In the end, i reached the office to actually NOT get the job. Yeah, you heard rite! NOT to get the job. The receptionist told me that the opening was taken up last week itself. She also told me that looking at me I wouldn't last in that job at all. It is a position for SPM leavers and more suitable for girls. The job also doesn't have much upward mobility, i.e:- not much in the way of promotions.
She then proceeded to LECTURE me. Halfway through i realised that i was led to that place, with all the 'clues' NOT to actually get a job but in a way I was set to be there to listen to her instruct me. A lot of the things she said rang in the same tone of my parents' advices to me. Seriously though, coming from a total stranger it had a totally different feeling to it. It actually made me look at the points carefully and superimpose it with what my parents had already said because she was talking from a different level, a different angle and a different perspective. So yeah, i actually thought deeper about all those things that my parents had already said.
Next she went on to tell me about corporate life. [Stuff that you won't learn even in Harvard Business School, right Zack ;)?] Honestly though, it did feel that way. Here was someone that is experienced working for firms and she is willing to give me advise for FREE. Which idiot would not listen? I just soaked it all up as much as i can. The one hour plus i spent listening to that lady, i think i learnt enough of pure knowledge that can be gained in one semester in MMU. Plus whether or not she realised it, she actually gave me an outline of what i should be doing in the next 2 years. Interestingly, this was my question during my prayers!!~ "What path should i choose now?".
The Divine move in mysterious ways to answer our prayers.
-Mathan-
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Physics is a mind-twister
Hey guys,
It started out just another day. I was up and chatting, eating and doing little chores. About 9pm Zack asked me to go to the nearby mamak. It was set at 10pm and that's where i ended up until about 12:45am having my dinner/supper.
Well, it was one of the times when Zack and I were both on fire in the mental juices department. Something was cooking and after simmering in our minds, the ideas just started overflowing. I mean we were talking about stuff on TV and Zack was updating us about the greatest battleship ever built; the Japanese-made "YAMATO" based on the documentary he watched in ASTRO.
At one point, we were talking about aeroplanes and we all agreed that the SR-71 BlackBird is the most interesting piece of machinery ever built. Flying at about 85,000 feet (16 miles from the ground), the BlackBird can achieve speeds of about 3.2+Mach. Following planes, we were talking about the declining Dollar value, and some other stuff.
The most interesting part came after that when we were talking about planes and the guys were letting me know that AirForce One.....is actually capable of sustaining a space travel trip if the pilot really got them out of the atmosphere. This let us into thinking about the radiation levels humans have to endure in space due to the lack of an ozone layer.
I was explaining to them about the whole thing that is to do with gamma rays which are actually
very potent and they need a lot of shielding to be protected. Somehow the conversation got extrapolated and were actually trying to think as to why light behaves as a wave, yet it can be propogated through a medium-less vacuum. Zack mentioned, "What if the vacuum is vacuum but not completely devoid of matter. There is actually something there in vacuum that us as normal humans cannot percieve. Kudos to Zack....for this interesting thought; that caused me to continue by thinking of the gravitational fields and how it can be fitted inside.
Honestly, i would love nothing more than to mention further in detail how we came by our theory, but i am dead tired and i feel like i could doze off anytime. So, guess things have to wait a bit for the moment. Happy Graduation for the rest of u ..take care, guys!!~
It started out just another day. I was up and chatting, eating and doing little chores. About 9pm Zack asked me to go to the nearby mamak. It was set at 10pm and that's where i ended up until about 12:45am having my dinner/supper.
Well, it was one of the times when Zack and I were both on fire in the mental juices department. Something was cooking and after simmering in our minds, the ideas just started overflowing. I mean we were talking about stuff on TV and Zack was updating us about the greatest battleship ever built; the Japanese-made "YAMATO" based on the documentary he watched in ASTRO.
At one point, we were talking about aeroplanes and we all agreed that the SR-71 BlackBird is the most interesting piece of machinery ever built. Flying at about 85,000 feet (16 miles from the ground), the BlackBird can achieve speeds of about 3.2+Mach. Following planes, we were talking about the declining Dollar value, and some other stuff.
The most interesting part came after that when we were talking about planes and the guys were letting me know that AirForce One.....is actually capable of sustaining a space travel trip if the pilot really got them out of the atmosphere. This let us into thinking about the radiation levels humans have to endure in space due to the lack of an ozone layer.
I was explaining to them about the whole thing that is to do with gamma rays which are actually
very potent and they need a lot of shielding to be protected. Somehow the conversation got extrapolated and were actually trying to think as to why light behaves as a wave, yet it can be propogated through a medium-less vacuum. Zack mentioned, "What if the vacuum is vacuum but not completely devoid of matter. There is actually something there in vacuum that us as normal humans cannot percieve. Kudos to Zack....for this interesting thought; that caused me to continue by thinking of the gravitational fields and how it can be fitted inside.
Honestly, i would love nothing more than to mention further in detail how we came by our theory, but i am dead tired and i feel like i could doze off anytime. So, guess things have to wait a bit for the moment. Happy Graduation for the rest of u ..take care, guys!!~
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Escaping the authorities...
Morning 9.00am - 10.00am
Heart is pumping fast. There is a need to be there. I need to be there fast, and time is running out. I step on the accelerator. Every moment is a calculated risk that i am willing to take. Stepping on the accelerator is an absolute risk in my case as i have seen currently my luck, travelling on the Malaysian highway system, is not so good. Things happen to me, terrible things that never happened to me before. Sometimes, i feel that all the would-be accidents and near misses that i had experienced in the last 7 years went through some sort of 'credit accumulation'. And now, it's time to PAY in FULL. But, this is not the point of my post...
I took the calculated risk. I accelerated as the need of it pressed urgently. Then,.... i saw him, and my world came crashing down. White uniform shirt, black pants and boots, holding a laser speed gun at the divider, pointing at ME... *BaNg*..i died in my heart. "NO-oooooo, why of all days today?" was the thought running across my mind. A quick check told me i was doing 110Km/h, and i have to hope that is the speed limit in the area and not 90km/h hopefully. So much for taking calculated risks, i thought.
Anyway, i was praying hard and looking out for the road block that siphons out criminals from goodly citizens on the road. Yet, i did not see any. I realised belatedly after 10minutes that i had ESCAPED!~ I went on to the destination and reached on time. (Not that it was worth it due to the management incompetence on the other side. Yet, to offset that dissatisfactory event i met someone that could potentially be a great ally in my future and a guy that was a blast from the past;Mr. Gopinath Naidu. May it happen that we cross paths again and we have more time to discuss news, bro!)
Night 9.00pm
Fast forward to the night-life. Went clubbing and well, AGAIN there was a dissappointment as i belatedly realised that i was a part of a birthday party where i didn't know ANYBODY among the celebtrating. I hate it, i Hate it, I HATE IT!!!!!~ when people don't open their bloody mouths and inform me, as to what am i to EXPECT especially after i have ASKED them. I HATE IT, when i ask "Who else is going to be there?" and the response i get is "my fren". Yes, i realise i do not know you're friends but, telling me the name won't kill your friend, RIGHT? I do NOT ask personal questions, i just want to have a rough picture of what to expect and how to behave when i get there and to me, YES!! knowing their name beforehand helps. I cannot deal with surprises when they make me feel stupid and out of place, and that's exactly what happened, by not knowing what the whole outing was about. I just blindly went there to dance with a few friends and realised there is only so much dancing u can do if everybody is hanging out with their OWN friends and celebrating their own BIRTHDAY party.
Was totally feeling pissed off with myself for being so stupid. They all wanted to meet up at a mamak in Subang. 2 cars left KL; 1 car with 6 people crammed and another with me driving alone. So, NOW do u realise how out of place i was feeling? This 6 people included the people that invited me for the outing in the first place. The rest of the birthday celebraters i won't include in this calculation as i totally wasn't intro-ed to them also. Still don't understand why i wanted to continue on to a mamak session with them...but that is not the point....
IT HAPPENED AGAIN. I just drove past the Pudu Jail traffic lights when there was a police blockade. I was aghast. The escape in the morning was playing back in my mind and i was thinking, how COME? Is it Fated that i HAVE to be caught!~? Again, i started praying hard. I mean i just had one beer for the whole night, that i barely need to be questioned. The car approached the blockade. This time the policemen were serious, they really checked each car with torchlights. I busily thought how am i going to make it look like i am just a normal guy driving by and not back from clubbing. Threw away my neck-beads, wore my specs and did a little arrangement thingy of the stuff on the passenger seat and then approached the police. It had to be luck, i ESCAPED yet again!!~ They just took one disinterested look at my car and waved me off.
So, went to the mamak. Ate and returned home. Driving using a license that already expired end of last month.....;P
-Mathan-
Heart is pumping fast. There is a need to be there. I need to be there fast, and time is running out. I step on the accelerator. Every moment is a calculated risk that i am willing to take. Stepping on the accelerator is an absolute risk in my case as i have seen currently my luck, travelling on the Malaysian highway system, is not so good. Things happen to me, terrible things that never happened to me before. Sometimes, i feel that all the would-be accidents and near misses that i had experienced in the last 7 years went through some sort of 'credit accumulation'. And now, it's time to PAY in FULL. But, this is not the point of my post...
I took the calculated risk. I accelerated as the need of it pressed urgently. Then,.... i saw him, and my world came crashing down. White uniform shirt, black pants and boots, holding a laser speed gun at the divider, pointing at ME... *BaNg*..i died in my heart. "NO-oooooo, why of all days today?" was the thought running across my mind. A quick check told me i was doing 110Km/h, and i have to hope that is the speed limit in the area and not 90km/h hopefully. So much for taking calculated risks, i thought.
Anyway, i was praying hard and looking out for the road block that siphons out criminals from goodly citizens on the road. Yet, i did not see any. I realised belatedly after 10minutes that i had ESCAPED!~ I went on to the destination and reached on time. (Not that it was worth it due to the management incompetence on the other side. Yet, to offset that dissatisfactory event i met someone that could potentially be a great ally in my future and a guy that was a blast from the past;Mr. Gopinath Naidu. May it happen that we cross paths again and we have more time to discuss news, bro!)
Night 9.00pm
Fast forward to the night-life. Went clubbing and well, AGAIN there was a dissappointment as i belatedly realised that i was a part of a birthday party where i didn't know ANYBODY among the celebtrating. I hate it, i Hate it, I HATE IT!!!!!~ when people don't open their bloody mouths and inform me, as to what am i to EXPECT especially after i have ASKED them. I HATE IT, when i ask "Who else is going to be there?" and the response i get is "my fren". Yes, i realise i do not know you're friends but, telling me the name won't kill your friend, RIGHT? I do NOT ask personal questions, i just want to have a rough picture of what to expect and how to behave when i get there and to me, YES!! knowing their name beforehand helps. I cannot deal with surprises when they make me feel stupid and out of place, and that's exactly what happened, by not knowing what the whole outing was about. I just blindly went there to dance with a few friends and realised there is only so much dancing u can do if everybody is hanging out with their OWN friends and celebrating their own BIRTHDAY party.
Was totally feeling pissed off with myself for being so stupid. They all wanted to meet up at a mamak in Subang. 2 cars left KL; 1 car with 6 people crammed and another with me driving alone. So, NOW do u realise how out of place i was feeling? This 6 people included the people that invited me for the outing in the first place. The rest of the birthday celebraters i won't include in this calculation as i totally wasn't intro-ed to them also. Still don't understand why i wanted to continue on to a mamak session with them...but that is not the point....
IT HAPPENED AGAIN. I just drove past the Pudu Jail traffic lights when there was a police blockade. I was aghast. The escape in the morning was playing back in my mind and i was thinking, how COME? Is it Fated that i HAVE to be caught!~? Again, i started praying hard. I mean i just had one beer for the whole night, that i barely need to be questioned. The car approached the blockade. This time the policemen were serious, they really checked each car with torchlights. I busily thought how am i going to make it look like i am just a normal guy driving by and not back from clubbing. Threw away my neck-beads, wore my specs and did a little arrangement thingy of the stuff on the passenger seat and then approached the police. It had to be luck, i ESCAPED yet again!!~ They just took one disinterested look at my car and waved me off.
So, went to the mamak. Ate and returned home. Driving using a license that already expired end of last month.....;P
-Mathan-
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
The 1st Chakra in our body system
Hey to everybody out there,
This is the first time after a long time that i am remembering that i had promised to actually include notes about the rest of the Chakras. To newbies that didn't see my archives, the name of my website is not unique. It is the well-known name of the 5th of 7 major chakras in all our bodies. Vishuddha represents listening to our inner voice and creativity as well as the connection with others through speaking and listening.
Now, i shall brief you all about the First Chakra; Muladhara.
The first chakra, located at the base of the spine, represents our foundation. It is related to our tangible, life-affirming down to earth experiences, our tribal energy.It resonates to the color red and the element earth.A well balanced first chakra results in a feeling of calm and an aura of quiet strength and confidence.
It is also here at the Muladhara Chakra where the Kundalini Force of every individual lies dormant. It is pictured as a serpent coiled into 3 and a half circles; with its mouth closing the Sushumna Nadi (the highway that links the 7 chakras in a straight line). The Kundalini Force in all of us can be awakened gradually through dedicated, uninterrupted serious personal meditation techniques. The standard time limit can be something around 12 years before we start seeing real results (ie:- just the awakening of the Force).
With the Will and Word of a true Divine Guruji guiding us however, this long process can be reduced to a simple undertaking of months, weeks, days (even hours?? ;D ). Following this, we can just apply the techniques taught by our Guruji and encourage the travel of our Kundalini Force from Muladhara, right up to the 7th Chakra. Why do we WANT this to happen? The arrival of the Kundalini Force at the last Chakra is what causes us to reach Enlightenment/ Moksha/ Nirvana and break free from the cycle of rebirth and marks us as fit to attain God.
-Mathan-
This is the first time after a long time that i am remembering that i had promised to actually include notes about the rest of the Chakras. To newbies that didn't see my archives, the name of my website is not unique. It is the well-known name of the 5th of 7 major chakras in all our bodies. Vishuddha represents listening to our inner voice and creativity as well as the connection with others through speaking and listening.
Now, i shall brief you all about the First Chakra; Muladhara.
The first chakra, located at the base of the spine, represents our foundation. It is related to our tangible, life-affirming down to earth experiences, our tribal energy.It resonates to the color red and the element earth.A well balanced first chakra results in a feeling of calm and an aura of quiet strength and confidence.
It is also here at the Muladhara Chakra where the Kundalini Force of every individual lies dormant. It is pictured as a serpent coiled into 3 and a half circles; with its mouth closing the Sushumna Nadi (the highway that links the 7 chakras in a straight line). The Kundalini Force in all of us can be awakened gradually through dedicated, uninterrupted serious personal meditation techniques. The standard time limit can be something around 12 years before we start seeing real results (ie:- just the awakening of the Force).
With the Will and Word of a true Divine Guruji guiding us however, this long process can be reduced to a simple undertaking of months, weeks, days (even hours?? ;D ). Following this, we can just apply the techniques taught by our Guruji and encourage the travel of our Kundalini Force from Muladhara, right up to the 7th Chakra. Why do we WANT this to happen? The arrival of the Kundalini Force at the last Chakra is what causes us to reach Enlightenment/ Moksha/ Nirvana and break free from the cycle of rebirth and marks us as fit to attain God.
-Mathan-
Saturday, April 02, 2005
The terrors of the world
Yeaps ladies and gentlemen.
The terrors of the known universe is coming crashing down on me at the moment. I cannot say anything la. The only realm i seem to be scoring high points in is socialising. I hope that i will be able to go to Cafe7 later saturday evening. But, i am not sure if anything is going to be possible when it comes across my laziness.
I really want to work. Somehow there is this strange vibe inside me that is saying i will work only for what i believe in. For Heaven's Sake!~ This is my life here. Not the beginning of some tragic anime tale. I want to be able to perform anywhere. I want to be able to show everybody that i CAN MAKE it happen!~ Yet, i feel hesitant to sieze the moment.
This whole "i am going to die soon" thing is totally ticking me off. I do NOT want to live my life being paranoid. I want to be able to have fun and survive and thrive. I seriously think that i am spending way TOO MUCH time doing nothing. I need to be out there making my dreams come true.
I need myself to be strong enough to kick me, hopefully in the right direction. This is what i want to pray for since i have no ideas in the head as to which direction is the right one for me.
-Mathan-
The terrors of the known universe is coming crashing down on me at the moment. I cannot say anything la. The only realm i seem to be scoring high points in is socialising. I hope that i will be able to go to Cafe7 later saturday evening. But, i am not sure if anything is going to be possible when it comes across my laziness.
I really want to work. Somehow there is this strange vibe inside me that is saying i will work only for what i believe in. For Heaven's Sake!~ This is my life here. Not the beginning of some tragic anime tale. I want to be able to perform anywhere. I want to be able to show everybody that i CAN MAKE it happen!~ Yet, i feel hesitant to sieze the moment.
This whole "i am going to die soon" thing is totally ticking me off. I do NOT want to live my life being paranoid. I want to be able to have fun and survive and thrive. I seriously think that i am spending way TOO MUCH time doing nothing. I need to be out there making my dreams come true.
I need myself to be strong enough to kick me, hopefully in the right direction. This is what i want to pray for since i have no ideas in the head as to which direction is the right one for me.
-Mathan-
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
The EARTHQUAKE has happened
Well ,
To the mulitudes of people affected by the recent earthquakes i am terribly sorry guys. My deepest condolences to those people that were caught in the middle of it all.
To the rest of the Malaysians who might be reading this. I would like to point out one thing. Being alarmed during tremors such as these recent ones is totally acceptable. We HAVE to go into panic mode everytime we feel something. We HAVE to evacuate and run every single time. Please do not be lazy or macho and stay inside thinking that it will pass. Some people reading my blog might feel that i am being paranoid. Some might be thinking in your heart as to why PANIC? We need to calmly get out in an orderly manner to avoid casualties.
The problem lies in the fact that we as a COUNTRY have never been exposed to Earthquakes. We have seen movies yet it has never occured in Malaysia and by default we are thinking it will NOT hit us. Yet the multitudes of people felt the buildings shake at the highest floors in an area covering Penang, Langkawi, Kedah all the way down to Klang and i guess further south but i haven't heard anyone from there making any claims personally. In Klang, My dad said he was lying down on the sofa watching TV in the ground floor of our double storey house and he felt the tremors. Same goes to my best fren who lives a few hundred metres away from my house. I heard it from Hock that his fren felt in some apartments up in Penang.
Now to the important part. Malaysian buildings were not built to withstand quakes like buildings in Japan and other countries that thrive along the Pacific Rim of Fire. Even if there was a standard practice to adhere to so that minor tremors will not affect the buildings, we HAVE to ask ourselves about the integrity of our contractors and developers. Simple things like 'piling' works from a nearby new project has been known to crack house walls and floor tiles, NOT from old houses but, of houses that were JUST completed in an earlier phase. Meaning the soil that houses are built on are not exactly compacted to a level it won't break apart during kinetic energy transfers.
So, how are they supposed to withstand Earthquake-waves travelling underneath the ground??? Simple fact of life is, waves travel better in more compact mediums. Sound waves for example travel faster in liquid as compared to gas and even faster in solid stuffs. They are called sound waves cause they carry sound energy. Earthquake-waves are a primary source of kinetic energy transfer (energy of MOVEMENT in any direction). These waves that travel in the ground can actually transfer this kinetic energy across the building foundations easily and cause the same energy to be transferred upwards along the very beams that support the buildings, causing the beams to vibrate and tremble in any direction.
Number one, i don't think OUR developers would have used any special materials or techniques in the construction phase to make our buildings Quake-proof. Next, judging by the low threshold of endurance the new houses are displaying i feel very inclined to question, "HOW MANY TREMORS CAN MALAYSIAN BUILDINGS TAKE BEFORE THEY START CRACKING DOWN THE MIDDLE? HOW MANY KITCHEN WALLS ARE GOING TO BREAK AND PART FROM THE MAIN HOUSE WALLS? HOW MANY SINKHOLES? HOW MANY CRACKS IN BUILDINGS THAT USE DIRECT GAS LINES?
I know that we will never be hit by any earthquake since the nearest fault line can only cause tremors on our shores when it's groaning with a magnitude of 8.2 . But every wave of kinetic energy that is cruising past across malaysia is causing problems underground at a level that we cannot imagine. Saying "Nolah, nothing like that could happen", is what the MALAYsian government will do because they do NOT want to get off their bloody butts and do something to PREvENT things for once. They will just sit there until some real high profile people in a high and mighty condominium all DIE!!~... because the authorities never checked how everything was changing under their butts. After that point the parliment will be trying to discuss who is to blame and which developer is supposed to take the fall when in actual fact it is their own STAFF to be blamed. They were the ones who were everyday praying and going back home at 4pm instead of taking the initiative to find out what we DON'T know about the world underneath us .
Please GOD, a simple physics student like me can realise the magnitude of what can happen after a bunch of cumulative tremors start cracking up building foundations slowly over the course of let's say .....abt 15 years? Gas pipes leaking becoming fire hazards, cracked water pipes causing erosion underneath buildings. We HAVE to take into account the fact that there are many more kinetic waves that are travelling underneath us unnotticed because they are deeper, weaker and our legs aren't really seismic detectors. Those unnoticed tremors nevertheless are also still transferring kinetic energy in all directions causing changes underneath us, SLOWLY but SURELY. PLease GOD, LET some GEOLOGIST expert in Malaysia be aware of these facts and take action please!!~ At least to let us know which areas could be affected the most by these recent geological activities. Who cares about the public panic or foreign investors' alarm? ...if at the end of the day, people are ready to act the day something bad happens because the Fire Department, RELA and everybody is aware of the high risk areas to lend immediate support.
Prevention is better than CURE. And YES, now Malaysians need to be thought how to deal with an incident where buildings could collapse on them (or under them to be politically correct). How to minimise damage to themselves and their loved ones, especially children. Just a general topic on this and letting everybody know is not going to be a problem right? PLEASE take action!~ If u need help then i guess i am ever willing to help, if it is going to save lives in future!!~
Current Updates!
Quake kills at least 300 on Indonesian island
Vice president says up to 2,000 could be dead
Tuesday, March 29, 2005 Posted: 2:40 AM EST (0740 GMT)
(CNN) -- A major earthquake struck off the west coast of Indonesia late Monday, killing hundreds, but fears of another tsunami like those that devastated the region in late December have faded.
On Indonesia's Nias Island at least 300 people died and hundreds more were reported injured or trapped, said government spokesman Agus Mendrova.
But international news agencies are reporting that between 1,000 and 2,000 people may have been killed on Nias Island.
"It is predicted -- and it's still a rough estimate -- that the number of the victims of dead may be between 1,000 and 2,000," Vice President Jusuf Kalla told the el-Shinta radio station, according to The Associated Press.
Between 500 and 1,000 homes were destroyed, and the island's public market was ablaze, Mendrova said.
Between 10,000 and 15,000 people ran to hilltops for safety in case of a tsunami, Mendrova said. Many of the doctors and nurses who normally would staff the hospital fled to higher ground.
To the mulitudes of people affected by the recent earthquakes i am terribly sorry guys. My deepest condolences to those people that were caught in the middle of it all.
To the rest of the Malaysians who might be reading this. I would like to point out one thing. Being alarmed during tremors such as these recent ones is totally acceptable. We HAVE to go into panic mode everytime we feel something. We HAVE to evacuate and run every single time. Please do not be lazy or macho and stay inside thinking that it will pass. Some people reading my blog might feel that i am being paranoid. Some might be thinking in your heart as to why PANIC? We need to calmly get out in an orderly manner to avoid casualties.
The problem lies in the fact that we as a COUNTRY have never been exposed to Earthquakes. We have seen movies yet it has never occured in Malaysia and by default we are thinking it will NOT hit us. Yet the multitudes of people felt the buildings shake at the highest floors in an area covering Penang, Langkawi, Kedah all the way down to Klang and i guess further south but i haven't heard anyone from there making any claims personally. In Klang, My dad said he was lying down on the sofa watching TV in the ground floor of our double storey house and he felt the tremors. Same goes to my best fren who lives a few hundred metres away from my house. I heard it from Hock that his fren felt in some apartments up in Penang.
Now to the important part. Malaysian buildings were not built to withstand quakes like buildings in Japan and other countries that thrive along the Pacific Rim of Fire. Even if there was a standard practice to adhere to so that minor tremors will not affect the buildings, we HAVE to ask ourselves about the integrity of our contractors and developers. Simple things like 'piling' works from a nearby new project has been known to crack house walls and floor tiles, NOT from old houses but, of houses that were JUST completed in an earlier phase. Meaning the soil that houses are built on are not exactly compacted to a level it won't break apart during kinetic energy transfers.
So, how are they supposed to withstand Earthquake-waves travelling underneath the ground??? Simple fact of life is, waves travel better in more compact mediums. Sound waves for example travel faster in liquid as compared to gas and even faster in solid stuffs. They are called sound waves cause they carry sound energy. Earthquake-waves are a primary source of kinetic energy transfer (energy of MOVEMENT in any direction). These waves that travel in the ground can actually transfer this kinetic energy across the building foundations easily and cause the same energy to be transferred upwards along the very beams that support the buildings, causing the beams to vibrate and tremble in any direction.
Number one, i don't think OUR developers would have used any special materials or techniques in the construction phase to make our buildings Quake-proof. Next, judging by the low threshold of endurance the new houses are displaying i feel very inclined to question, "HOW MANY TREMORS CAN MALAYSIAN BUILDINGS TAKE BEFORE THEY START CRACKING DOWN THE MIDDLE? HOW MANY KITCHEN WALLS ARE GOING TO BREAK AND PART FROM THE MAIN HOUSE WALLS? HOW MANY SINKHOLES? HOW MANY CRACKS IN BUILDINGS THAT USE DIRECT GAS LINES?
I know that we will never be hit by any earthquake since the nearest fault line can only cause tremors on our shores when it's groaning with a magnitude of 8.2 . But every wave of kinetic energy that is cruising past across malaysia is causing problems underground at a level that we cannot imagine. Saying "Nolah, nothing like that could happen", is what the MALAYsian government will do because they do NOT want to get off their bloody butts and do something to PREvENT things for once. They will just sit there until some real high profile people in a high and mighty condominium all DIE!!~... because the authorities never checked how everything was changing under their butts. After that point the parliment will be trying to discuss who is to blame and which developer is supposed to take the fall when in actual fact it is their own STAFF to be blamed. They were the ones who were everyday praying and going back home at 4pm instead of taking the initiative to find out what we DON'T know about the world underneath us .
Please GOD, a simple physics student like me can realise the magnitude of what can happen after a bunch of cumulative tremors start cracking up building foundations slowly over the course of let's say .....abt 15 years? Gas pipes leaking becoming fire hazards, cracked water pipes causing erosion underneath buildings. We HAVE to take into account the fact that there are many more kinetic waves that are travelling underneath us unnotticed because they are deeper, weaker and our legs aren't really seismic detectors. Those unnoticed tremors nevertheless are also still transferring kinetic energy in all directions causing changes underneath us, SLOWLY but SURELY. PLease GOD, LET some GEOLOGIST expert in Malaysia be aware of these facts and take action please!!~ At least to let us know which areas could be affected the most by these recent geological activities. Who cares about the public panic or foreign investors' alarm? ...if at the end of the day, people are ready to act the day something bad happens because the Fire Department, RELA and everybody is aware of the high risk areas to lend immediate support.
Prevention is better than CURE. And YES, now Malaysians need to be thought how to deal with an incident where buildings could collapse on them (or under them to be politically correct). How to minimise damage to themselves and their loved ones, especially children. Just a general topic on this and letting everybody know is not going to be a problem right? PLEASE take action!~ If u need help then i guess i am ever willing to help, if it is going to save lives in future!!~
Current Updates!
Quake kills at least 300 on Indonesian island
Vice president says up to 2,000 could be dead
Tuesday, March 29, 2005 Posted: 2:40 AM EST (0740 GMT)
(CNN) -- A major earthquake struck off the west coast of Indonesia late Monday, killing hundreds, but fears of another tsunami like those that devastated the region in late December have faded.
On Indonesia's Nias Island at least 300 people died and hundreds more were reported injured or trapped, said government spokesman Agus Mendrova.
But international news agencies are reporting that between 1,000 and 2,000 people may have been killed on Nias Island.
"It is predicted -- and it's still a rough estimate -- that the number of the victims of dead may be between 1,000 and 2,000," Vice President Jusuf Kalla told the el-Shinta radio station, according to The Associated Press.
Between 500 and 1,000 homes were destroyed, and the island's public market was ablaze, Mendrova said.
Between 10,000 and 15,000 people ran to hilltops for safety in case of a tsunami, Mendrova said. Many of the doctors and nurses who normally would staff the hospital fled to higher ground.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Too many things have happened
Well , hi people.
I am a bit blur at the moment. I feel like there is a lot of things to say here since a lot of things have happened. But i just do not know where to start.
It really has been a long time these last few weeks. i got into 3 problems involving the car. Yes we shall talk about this man.
The first one you can refer to my post "The longest day of my life". The second one involving the water pump u guys have to just read the "Working Guy!~~" to roughly know what had happened. The latest one was even worse. I was going to PJ Civic Centre to pass my sister something and get something back from her. I was at the last turn into PJ Civic Centre, I turned left to go in and a motorcycle crashed into my left passenger side and the 2 Malay guys went flying. The rider gut lotsa cuts on his hand. I sent him to the clinic cause it was more to my fault for not signalling earlier before turning in. Sigh. RM50 to patch the guy up. RM120 for the motorcycle.
I really hope everything passes with these 3 accidents. No more man. All 3 times the cost was on the old Ford which belongs to my dad. I really do not want him to think i am out to destroy his car. A few days back actually the first incident almost happened again. I was back on the KLIA highway and damn hell that highway can really make me sleepy. Luckily, i wasn't so tired to start off with.
Hmmnn....i was going to continue on with my post, but my mum called and i need to be ready in 20 minutes to go to do something. So well, i shall continue in a future post.
-Mathan-
I am a bit blur at the moment. I feel like there is a lot of things to say here since a lot of things have happened. But i just do not know where to start.
It really has been a long time these last few weeks. i got into 3 problems involving the car. Yes we shall talk about this man.
The first one you can refer to my post "The longest day of my life". The second one involving the water pump u guys have to just read the "Working Guy!~~" to roughly know what had happened. The latest one was even worse. I was going to PJ Civic Centre to pass my sister something and get something back from her. I was at the last turn into PJ Civic Centre, I turned left to go in and a motorcycle crashed into my left passenger side and the 2 Malay guys went flying. The rider gut lotsa cuts on his hand. I sent him to the clinic cause it was more to my fault for not signalling earlier before turning in. Sigh. RM50 to patch the guy up. RM120 for the motorcycle.
I really hope everything passes with these 3 accidents. No more man. All 3 times the cost was on the old Ford which belongs to my dad. I really do not want him to think i am out to destroy his car. A few days back actually the first incident almost happened again. I was back on the KLIA highway and damn hell that highway can really make me sleepy. Luckily, i wasn't so tired to start off with.
Hmmnn....i was going to continue on with my post, but my mum called and i need to be ready in 20 minutes to go to do something. So well, i shall continue in a future post.
-Mathan-
Monday, March 07, 2005
That came from somewhere far, far away..
Hi there people,
Good morning. Well , i am amazed. I am totally AMAZED and quite INTRIGUED by what i wrote in the earlier post. You guys have to realise. I was typing it in a half daze sleep. I could actually put that much thought into my posts even while i am semi-sleeping.
That's the AMAZED part about it. I could still make clear sentences. I could still make comparisons and actually go into a pissed off mode.
The INTRIGUING part is what i actually wrote about. I guess it is seriously stuff that has been around in my heart but still i never really acknowledged it. It was stuff that i thought i had resolved and come to terms with. But suddenly looking at it now, i realise the truth. I am still disturbed by those issues.
Sometimes i begin to wonder how true is it about the separation of mind and heart in a person. I mean i thought it was just said to make it easier for people to understand that heart deals with feelings and mind deals with logical thinking. "But, why is it that when i see her there is a warm feeling in my heart?" this question arises.
I guess the heart was made by God to be one of the senses as well. We just haven't realised it yet. Some sort of organ to feel Love, or Affection, or even Hate. Just like the tongue has the sense of tasting sweets, sours, saltyness and spicyness. So, an organ can sense more than one stimuli. And that organ reacts to the stimuli and let's the individual know that particular stimuli exists in the external environment. This then leads the individual to react and accomodate that stimuli and use it, or reject it in a negative stimuli case.
This instant liking feeling towards someone or dislike usually just gives birth in our thoughts without any logical explanation. It is only AFTER the feeling is there, we justify it by saying "she's cute" or "he's smart". Very much like feeling nauseous after Seeing something spin. The feeling happens first, and only then we justify "It's got to do with the rotation rate. It's too fast".
I can actually expand this theory further. Organs are meant for us to 'detect' stimuli and by picking up on that we analyse and react, right?. What if the heart was actually meant to be an organ for us to detect the feelings of others? Analysing the feelings we picked up and reacting to that would have made us better people as we would always be able to say the right things and avoid conflict at the wrong times. Since we're already clued in to the state of the other person's feelings. Noble idea is it not? A lot of problems could have been solved before they even started right?
Unfortunately for one little fact. The bakground noise of our own feelings. We see ourselves first, we hear our heartbeats first, we touch our own skin first, we taste our own saliva, we smell our bodies first, AND if you want to talk about the 6th sense of thought in humans, still we think of ourselves first. So why wouldn't we detect our own feelings with our heart first? By establishing this and understanding the limits of our own feelings, we might be able to start realising the other feelings that out heart is picking up on.
This is what the real 'caring' people do i guess. Like mothers. They just totally understand their own feelings and leave it aside and clear their hearts to recieve and react to feelings of their children. This happens instinctively. Maybe we can train ourselves to actually do it at a whim. Rather than feeling angry, picking up on it with our own heart and continuing the echo of that feeling until it explodes and causes us to react in violent ways. We might be able to feel angry and actually shut it out of our heart to let it sizzle away.
Food for thought , ya!!~~ ;)
-Mathan-
Good morning. Well , i am amazed. I am totally AMAZED and quite INTRIGUED by what i wrote in the earlier post. You guys have to realise. I was typing it in a half daze sleep. I could actually put that much thought into my posts even while i am semi-sleeping.
That's the AMAZED part about it. I could still make clear sentences. I could still make comparisons and actually go into a pissed off mode.
The INTRIGUING part is what i actually wrote about. I guess it is seriously stuff that has been around in my heart but still i never really acknowledged it. It was stuff that i thought i had resolved and come to terms with. But suddenly looking at it now, i realise the truth. I am still disturbed by those issues.
Sometimes i begin to wonder how true is it about the separation of mind and heart in a person. I mean i thought it was just said to make it easier for people to understand that heart deals with feelings and mind deals with logical thinking. "But, why is it that when i see her there is a warm feeling in my heart?" this question arises.
I guess the heart was made by God to be one of the senses as well. We just haven't realised it yet. Some sort of organ to feel Love, or Affection, or even Hate. Just like the tongue has the sense of tasting sweets, sours, saltyness and spicyness. So, an organ can sense more than one stimuli. And that organ reacts to the stimuli and let's the individual know that particular stimuli exists in the external environment. This then leads the individual to react and accomodate that stimuli and use it, or reject it in a negative stimuli case.
This instant liking feeling towards someone or dislike usually just gives birth in our thoughts without any logical explanation. It is only AFTER the feeling is there, we justify it by saying "she's cute" or "he's smart". Very much like feeling nauseous after Seeing something spin. The feeling happens first, and only then we justify "It's got to do with the rotation rate. It's too fast".
I can actually expand this theory further. Organs are meant for us to 'detect' stimuli and by picking up on that we analyse and react, right?. What if the heart was actually meant to be an organ for us to detect the feelings of others? Analysing the feelings we picked up and reacting to that would have made us better people as we would always be able to say the right things and avoid conflict at the wrong times. Since we're already clued in to the state of the other person's feelings. Noble idea is it not? A lot of problems could have been solved before they even started right?
Unfortunately for one little fact. The bakground noise of our own feelings. We see ourselves first, we hear our heartbeats first, we touch our own skin first, we taste our own saliva, we smell our bodies first, AND if you want to talk about the 6th sense of thought in humans, still we think of ourselves first. So why wouldn't we detect our own feelings with our heart first? By establishing this and understanding the limits of our own feelings, we might be able to start realising the other feelings that out heart is picking up on.
This is what the real 'caring' people do i guess. Like mothers. They just totally understand their own feelings and leave it aside and clear their hearts to recieve and react to feelings of their children. This happens instinctively. Maybe we can train ourselves to actually do it at a whim. Rather than feeling angry, picking up on it with our own heart and continuing the echo of that feeling until it explodes and causes us to react in violent ways. We might be able to feel angry and actually shut it out of our heart to let it sizzle away.
Food for thought , ya!!~~ ;)
-Mathan-
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Working guY!!~
Hey everybody.
Well i tried writing a lot of things that i finally got a bit pissed off. Cause i tried to stuff in things that were happening in the last week in one entry. Things were not really making sense. I just got tired of the whole thing and thought of writing back everything again.
Well, first of all. i was pissed off thinking of some shallow guys that still exist in MMU today that go around pushing gals to do things as HE wants it. No compromise to the gal and what she thinks and how she wants to live her life. If you feel like doing this go to some school dropout gal and impose on her about all the things she DOESN'T know la. Of course even then, i feel that gal would know how to DRESS HERSELF better than u can ever tell her how to.
That being said, i was very busy running around with work stuff. I love my job currently which is to MAKE it all HAPPEN....ehehehe....;). I really feel thankful for waiting so long and getting this job in the end. Low pay yeah. BUt hey, they guys i work for are not bad. They're quite funny.
Last thought of the post. Is to the screwed up thing that happened to me last night. Car fell into repair since i had been running around a LOT. The water pump failed and now some stuff are burnt and I can only collect the car tomorrow. -Sigh- And i am sure it is going to cost a bomb. And waste all the money that my mum has. It's just PISSING ME OFF!!~~ One more day and my dad would have checked it out himself and noticed the signs that it needs to be fixed, before further damage happened. But NO......it had to be like this. With all the money WASTED on a problem that could have been avoided.
Nevermind, life is just peachy for me at times and then, next i am thrown into a lot of problems. So yeah i am paying now for the fun i had eating lok-lok and playing pool in klang last weekend. I hope the fun i had watching the All-Stars game in Taipan last tuesday and watching "Sex is Zero" with Zack has been offset with this disaster as well as i cannot really think of going through another problem so fast la. Ahahaha....well, now that i looked at the ONE problem that happened as opposed to the 3 good things that happened while the car was still working great....my mood is a lot better. Well, it's just going to be money that is wasted rite? Not anythign else?
Anyway, i guess i better post this now and wait for comments since i haven't done so in a long time.
Well i tried writing a lot of things that i finally got a bit pissed off. Cause i tried to stuff in things that were happening in the last week in one entry. Things were not really making sense. I just got tired of the whole thing and thought of writing back everything again.
Well, first of all. i was pissed off thinking of some shallow guys that still exist in MMU today that go around pushing gals to do things as HE wants it. No compromise to the gal and what she thinks and how she wants to live her life. If you feel like doing this go to some school dropout gal and impose on her about all the things she DOESN'T know la. Of course even then, i feel that gal would know how to DRESS HERSELF better than u can ever tell her how to.
That being said, i was very busy running around with work stuff. I love my job currently which is to MAKE it all HAPPEN....ehehehe....;). I really feel thankful for waiting so long and getting this job in the end. Low pay yeah. BUt hey, they guys i work for are not bad. They're quite funny.
Last thought of the post. Is to the screwed up thing that happened to me last night. Car fell into repair since i had been running around a LOT. The water pump failed and now some stuff are burnt and I can only collect the car tomorrow. -Sigh- And i am sure it is going to cost a bomb. And waste all the money that my mum has. It's just PISSING ME OFF!!~~ One more day and my dad would have checked it out himself and noticed the signs that it needs to be fixed, before further damage happened. But NO......it had to be like this. With all the money WASTED on a problem that could have been avoided.
Nevermind, life is just peachy for me at times and then, next i am thrown into a lot of problems. So yeah i am paying now for the fun i had eating lok-lok and playing pool in klang last weekend. I hope the fun i had watching the All-Stars game in Taipan last tuesday and watching "Sex is Zero" with Zack has been offset with this disaster as well as i cannot really think of going through another problem so fast la. Ahahaha....well, now that i looked at the ONE problem that happened as opposed to the 3 good things that happened while the car was still working great....my mood is a lot better. Well, it's just going to be money that is wasted rite? Not anythign else?
Anyway, i guess i better post this now and wait for comments since i haven't done so in a long time.
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